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24/8/2020

Well yes i know it's 2020 i haven't wrote In ages the weather is bloody horribal, it's so cold serpose to be -1 tonight i need a live bear to keep me warm, I have been doing digital art and not doing to bad.
My body has been going threw changes i won't go on about it, But it's to do with my age.
I have studyed my leavel 1 ,2 and masters of reiki completed 2 crystal course now onto my 3 and 4th lol lol lol bloody crystals can't get enough of them.
I am trying complet my Crystal reiki certifcate, yes more crystal stuff.
I have put on a bit of weight sighhh but i'm still healthy , i walk neally every day.
Started doing about an Hour wanting to increase it.
My iron levels where very very lowe but i'm starting to get them back up.
I have also started to study A course in mircels again.
First lession i will put on here as a small pic it really makes my mind think.

I lisened to anouther man's view on this saying to me it's like do not place your ego on anything and accepted it just for what it is.
Alot like mindfullness, also makes me think of the saying you came into this world with nothing and when you go out you can't take it with you.
We are all vibrashion just energy.
It is was it is nothing more nothing less.

letter to my twf

27/2/2019

Dear Twin flame
I hope you are in fine spirit's today and enjoying life, I hope you are smiling and enjoying the sun and elements around you.
To day you have been in my thought's i whish we could talk i image us meeting up at a coffee shop having a coffee and talking about anything and everything i want to look in your eyes and understand you more.
I whish i could share with you the beautiful places i love like my tree.
My meditashion class was lovley lastnight a young girl in the group exsplaned some things happeing in my home life that i need to make changes in.
Manly with family exspecting to much from me i need to make healthy bounders.
And make time for me, to do the things i like i did not go walking yesterday today i need to i went to a second hand book place and brout a heap of book's.
I also what you to know that i'm am willing to wait for you as long as you need.
I love you very very much with all my heart and soul I know spirit will guide us togeather.
where ever you are i just want you to be relaxed and happy.
I do not want to push anything to hurt or push my energy onto you i dreamped about you lastnight i touched your face and looked into your eyes.
Be kind to yourself be gental.
Do the things you love,
My meditiashion was so magical lastnight i sat under a beautiful tree with little lantens and the lantens shone beautiful green/yellow light i saw beautiful firefly's and as i walked off i saw a large grey white wolf with big amber eyes, when i tryed to reach out and touch this wolf it growled at me like it was defencive, so i did not try when i said i hade to leave the meditation the wolf whimpered as if it was said it allowed me to hug it it licked my face before i left.
shuch a beautiful meditiahion.
Anyways dear TWF keep safe relax and smile oftin
Much love and hugs....

twin flames understanding

16/2/2019

Ok my question was answered about twin flames, the person i dream about is my twin flame so question got answered thank you guides i feel happy now, my heart was right, no more confusion i watched a u tube vid that gave me the answer i and i am being tolled there is no need to fear him he dose not won't to hurt me he want's me to feel safe with him and trust him he has shuch a warm soft soul.
Here comes that dreamy soft feel in my head again connecting with this person again.
I have nothing to fear loves me want's me to feel safe he is always protecting me.
Which makes sense why serton people have left my life.
I feel so happy in my heart.
Being tolled he is watching over the people around me very very protective, feelings of excittment.
There very tired and need to rest.
But to excitted to wanting so much to be around you.
Anyway i am quite happy

just fun readings

15/2/2019

i picked 3

i picked 1

i picked 2

Confusing thought's

15/2/2019

I am very confused about twin flames at the moment, my mind is tossing and turning.
And is there really twin flame or is it just a hope we have as human.
My message from my guides is self love is the most important thing to learn in this life time.
We don't love ourselves enought.
And i understand this lesson i hade a reading from a guy who did my aura reading he said this life time i will not have an romantic relashionship.
This life time, which didn't worry me.
I don't like getting my hope's up any more.
And this back and forth with this so called called twin flame which i'm starting to wounder if they are, i always believed that we have male and female energy with ourselves.
I really feel there's only one energy of me.
I keep picking up someone anger energy like they want to hurt me.
Is it this person who i think is my TWF do they want to hurt me.
I asked my guides how can i block out this negative energy, don't give it energy and just give it to them.
I keep getting nasty song's on u tube there not nice.
I'm so tired i'm ready to release the exspectashion on any of it it's so draining.
I have spiritual stuff that i need to get done.
My goodness it's so bressy.
Ok this is the message be greatful that you have an energy connecshion with them.
Be greatful for this feel blessed that you have them energtical.
But i need to release this and i am serrendering it.
I had a nap today i don't usely do that, but so tired.
anyways going to leave some fun stuff of readings.
I love watching in inuyasha it cracks me up.

dm twf SONGS FOR YOU

15/2/2019

FOR YOU

Like Gods of the Sun

My Dying Bride - For my fallen Angel

Awake

Archetype

dreams

happy valentines day

14/2/2019

Happy valentines all
I had a wonderful day today, I feel really happy my heart chakra is wide open,
I keep getting in my head ever time i start to worry about my mum i hear she's going to be ok all will be fine don't worry.
So i just listen and go with the flow.
Saw 222 at work to and just now 222
Having fun listen to music.
My dear TWF DM i hope you are having a good day also and where relaxed and happy.
A message came up what do you want.
I really want to get to know you as a person and vise vesea i want to build trust i want communication.
There you go it's out.
MY guides said to give all my worry to them not to put any negative energy or thoughts on it.
I was almost falling asleep at the computer and swear i heard someone laugh at me.
My guides also tolled me that even thoe im going threw stuff you still are sharing things with me which didn't understand but then it did.
I do really care and i also want to say how proud i am of you for the work you have done on yourself, and my love is always with you.
I will keep sending healing energy of love light and goodness.
As i work on my heart chakra i know it is also healing you.
I saw two Eagles today then i saw another 3 this afternoon.
All i have ever whished is to share the beauty of the world with you the simpal things, flowers, sunset's nature the beauty i have seen in there's things that have inriched my soul and helped me to heal.
I hope sharing them with you will help to heal you also, the richness of nature and all her beauty.
I want you to also know you are never alone i am always there with you when ever i feel pain in my heart i will touch my own heart think of you and send reiki.
Sometimes if i close my eyes i can feel you there.
i just whish i could look into your eye's.
I use to write poem's and since i've re connected with you this part has reamerged i thought it was dead.
I whish i could shear so much with you.
Thank you for your kindness, humor, gentalness and love.... you are always in my thought's no mater where i am, you are me.
All my love keep safe and smile often.

bittersweet

very stressful day

13/2/2019

Feeling so tired i did not sleep very good last night, maybe lucky to have an hour sleep.
Dealing with some family stuff, my mum has to have more heart tests done, i think it was a big slap in the face for me a big wake up call.
Never take people for granted, the big wake has passed i feel a bit more relaxed, very very tired thoe.
My dear TWF or DM i am not anger at you i am just looking at my inner demon's and i need to face them, i am lisening to my guides, and i am.
Trying to let go of my past hurts faceing my fears today i feelt sick in my stomic and my heart was acking, i cryed a bit i allowed myself to release my fear.
We all have our wound's and fears to heal it is our own journey.
I must heal and love my inner child which i am trying to do, like my friend said look at emoshions like cloudes abserve it then let it move buy.
So i allow myself to feel every emoshion and feeling then release.
I whish to send you love light and goodness, love healing energy with reiki but i need to ask your higher self .
I have been doing reiki on my heart charkra it sooth's me and makes me relax.
I will try a twin flame meditition tonight to connected with you and talk, But again i must ask if this is ok with you as i do not want to intrude in your space and make you feel uncomftbal and anger with me, this is not my intenshion.
I don't want to make you feel like i'm spying on you, This is not my intenshion.
I just like to check on you and see if your ok.
I will never stop loving you, as how do you stop loving someone that is with you all ways you are already a part of me you talk to me every day.
you give me sines every day.
I just want you to know i love and care about you very deeply, you are in my thought's every day.
But somtime's i need to face my inner demons on my own send me love hope and pray's but my demons are my own, my guides are helping me with this.
They helped me before there helping me again.
I have to leave it here as i really need to sleep.
Meditation time.
Here are some song's I got today.

Today

12/2/2019

Well Went to meditiashion tonight we worked on the root charkra i almost fell asleep it was just what i needed.
This chakra i really need to work on more.
In my meditiation i saw a wolf hiding behind a tree watching, I also saw a deer coming up too me.
When we asked to walk in the grass it was most under my feet i could feel it slip.
I feelt realxed and happy.
Melly also showed us some chakra spray omg beautiful smell .
I'm so so tired so i won't write to much.
Still getting lot's and lot's of messages,
Yes i know my TWF or DM has short hair when i tune in i can see his eyes he still worry's to much i still see tears in the eyes, loneyness and sadness in the heart.
Very loney not many friends i see payper work and computers.
Loves to sit out side very deep thinking and very quite.
So sad, a lot more quite around them i feel like they like this.
Sitting outside on a step see drinking a hot cup of tea of coffee.
So sad and loney.
I see a lot of writing in a dairy of some sort and reading letter's.
i just saw 222
Tomorrow i have to take mum to see the cardiologist tomorrow so i have to be up early up at 7:00 dang it.
Omg just lisegning to this gemini this up down shit i'd rather be buy myself the go up and down shit i'm over that crap. ....... I think ill be quite happy buy myself alot more peace of mind, Its hard engouth dealing with myself then dealing with anoghter anyways i need to sleep not looking at it don't want to look giving it to the angel's please give me peace.
as i said if it's ment to be its ment to be if not so be it.
I need peace of mind.

inuyasha

Confushion

9/2/2019

I'm so confussed all these's missed feeling's it's driving me crazy, My guides just said let it go, so i am i'm giving it to my angel's and god because I don't like feeling like this.
I just need to love myself more and work on myself, I'm tired of having faith.
I want to have faith but i think i'm hoping on somthing that is not real.
Maybe i'm just crazy with the message's ive been reciveing from spirit.
I just don't know what to believe any more.
I read one posstive message then i get a real negative one and it's just confussing me more and more.
I just need to let go.
I deserve respected, truth and love.
I'm studding Twin Flame stuff  my twin flame is on the astrale plain.
And tolled me time and time again, i'm learning threw you so don't do anything stupid.
I'm really trying but confused i thought they where gorn i let go because i honestly thought they where gorn.
I didn't pick up anything no messages no sines nothing only dreams when i've been really down.
I saw him kneeling down in front of me hands around
waist head on my chest cudding me saying there sorry and sad.
I feel them around watching me , i'm giving this to god and the angel's.
Because it dose feel to good to be true and that i feel it's just my mind hoping.
I just don't want to look at it, as it hurts me too much.
I Hear there voice in my ears, during the night and day, i do love them and it's ok to love them but i need to release the worry to my guides and consentrate on what i want to do with my work life, and spiritual life.
If it's not who i feel it is god will bring me the right one, if not i'm happy with myself i need to love me as i'm with me all the time.
I've been seeing 11:11, 222, 333, 444 one day i believe anouther day it's well fuck me this is just bullshit talking myself into crap come back to earth.
It's so hard for me to allow anouther person in to love because i know i meet my TWF it's hard.
If i never meet them so be it if i do so be it.
I just tired of giving so much energy so i release and let it go and give it to god.
Aleast one good thing happened when i lost my father it brout me back to mother and father god sorce.
That i do trust in......
My angel's god and my spritiual family.
I want to cry and let out all these's emoshions.
anyway's that's my rant