I just need to love myself more and work on myself, I'm tired of having faith.
I want to have faith but i think i'm hoping on somthing that is not real.
Maybe i'm just crazy with the message's ive been reciveing from spirit.
I just don't know what to believe any more.
I read one posstive message then i get a real negative one and it's just confussing me more and more.
I just need to let go.
I deserve respected, truth and love.
I'm studding Twin Flame stuff my twin flame is on the astrale plain.
And tolled me time and time again, i'm learning threw you so don't do anything stupid.
I'm really trying but confused i thought they where gorn i let go because i honestly thought they where gorn.
I didn't pick up anything no messages no sines nothing only dreams when i've been really down.
I saw him kneeling down in front of me hands around
waist head on my chest cudding me saying there sorry and sad.
I feel them around watching me , i'm giving this to god and the angel's.
Because it dose feel to good to be true and that i feel it's just my mind hoping.
I just don't want to look at it, as it hurts me too much.
I Hear there voice in my ears, during the night and day, i do love them and it's ok to love them but i need to release the worry to my guides and consentrate on what i want to do with my work life, and spiritual life.
If it's not who i feel it is god will bring me the right one, if not i'm happy with myself i need to love me as i'm with me all the time.
I've been seeing 11:11, 222, 333, 444 one day i believe anouther day it's well fuck me this is just bullshit talking myself into crap come back to earth.
It's so hard for me to allow anouther person in to love because i know i meet my TWF it's hard.
If i never meet them so be it if i do so be it.
I just tired of giving so much energy so i release and let it go and give it to god.
Aleast one good thing happened when i lost my father it brout me back to mother and father god sorce.
That i do trust in......
My angel's god and my spritiual family.
I want to cry and let out all these's emoshions.
anyway's that's my rant