Confusing thought's

I am very confused about twin flames at the moment, my mind is tossing and turning.
And is there really twin flame or is it just a hope we have as human.
My message from my guides is self love is the most important thing to learn in this life time.
We don't love ourselves enought.
And i understand this lesson i hade a reading from a guy who did my aura reading he said this life time i will not have an romantic relashionship.
This life time, which didn't worry me.
I don't like getting my hope's up any more.
And this back and forth with this so called called twin flame which i'm starting to wounder if they are, i always believed that we have male and female energy with ourselves.
I really feel there's only one energy of me.
I keep picking up someone anger energy like they want to hurt me.
Is it this person who i think is my TWF do they want to hurt me.
   I asked my guides how can i block out this negative energy, don't give it energy and just give it to them.
I keep getting nasty song's on u tube there not nice.
I'm so tired i'm ready to release the exspectashion on any of it it's so draining.
I have spiritual stuff that i need to get done.
My goodness it's so bressy.
Ok this is the message be greatful that you have an energy connecshion with them.
Be greatful for this feel blessed that you have them energtical.
But i need to release this and i am serrendering it.
I had a nap today i don't usely do that, but so tired.
anyways going to leave some fun stuff of readings.
I love watching in inuyasha it cracks me up.