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28/2/2024

What A busy day ive hade today, Shoping day today Food paying bills , i also brut myself three new ferns lol lol lol yesss more fern, I just love Tree ferns so much.
There the most beautifulest fern i have ever seen I find them magical.
I also had a massage today now i just feel like sleeping, the weather is horribal so hot, it reached 38 today and at night its just so hot , graving water, need to drink more then 2 leters today after my massage.

Beautiful massage room i want to get aqua coloured sheets and clothes i just love aqua colours at the moment.
Aqua to me is refreshing, clean, clamness, relaxing, peaceful, gental, soothing, restful.... im also drawn to sliver i still also like green/yellow colour and orange.
the colour like ferns or sunlight threw leaves is my favourt green.
I'm very tired tonight need a good sleep i can't wait to have a shower clean the day off me i find a shower so cleansing..... i would so love to go to the ocean.
Or a walk in a rainforest.
My other Dolores Cannon book Jesus and the essenes turned up today, and i finally ordered the lamerian starseed card deck so happy.
I also came across a book which i wanted in 2007 Voyagers 1 the sleeping abductees, by Deane Ashayana but mygoodness so exspensive.
And my dear Twin yes i am still picking you up I hope you are doing very well, and life is treating you good, Keep safe my friend and i pray that angels keep you safe in your travels.
I jeep seeing a large duffel bag like they use in the army. My friend picks up army clothes.
I want to also apoligise, if i ever come across to clingey or to mothery this is somthing i need to stop with people,
I serpose that's what comes with doing Nursing.
But i really mean it i want you to be happy safe and enjoy your life no matter what you do i'm happy for you.
I'm not depressed i.m just living one day at a time, living in the moment.
I have a beautiful big tree inwhich i sit under on my days off i have a coffee in the quite away from everyone its just lovely i see birds and bugs small lizards my trees name is Danny, a tall pine tree, i feel so at peace there, Its like my body goes aahhhhh sitting there i feel so realxed.
I get alot of Grounding I have a small grounding pad but i would like to get a grounding sheet for my bed.
Anyways i will leave it here i am very very tired.
And need a good sleep

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28/2/2024

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Well It's my day off today, again feeling Drained and tired.
Abit up and down in my Emoshion's i just allow the feeling to sit there and let it do it's thing then move on like little cloudes.
I don't like feeling confused, i keep picking up so much, Sometimes i think errhhh it's just you over thinking and hoping on somthing that's not real it's all in my head.
But the energy i'm picking up i know this energy so well , i know his energy, sometimes i pick up sadness and tears other time's a warm heartful feeling, sometimes excitment.
But i just feel it let it go, I use to when i got over emoshional or over think and worry to much give it to arch angel micheal but i decided to go one step, higher this time and give it to the great sorce god as some would say.
I keep picking up mixed messages up and down weather this is me or him unshore probley both.
I know things have happened and it was all out of his controle but slowly i am getting answers.
I miss him i love him but i also don't exspected anything from him.
He has his own life as i have mine but im not crying over it iver It is What It is i just want him to be happy.
I keep picking up Canada but also newzelend too not shore why maybe he wants to visit Newzeland.
I'm just to tired this is somthing i let go of years ago,
I pick up little messages i see trees and snow and the woods i feel lonelness and sadness misunderstood.
I will say one thing I passed my Course Yessss now i can really get in and practice.
I feel like he watchs me threw facebook or some sort of website.
Just unshore which one.
I just whish you happness and peace ......
Life is what you make it.
you make it good you make it bad it is how you think or feel
just reamber your always in my heart around me in energy, some days i do feel sad and i miss you but i do not want to be selfish do what makes you happy.
I still pick up evening times near the ocean, Star fish sand and shells.
we will always be connected thew mind and heart.
But it is what it is and its out of my controle.
I learnt a long time ago, you can never control anouther its there life, and they must live it.
You also can not make someone love you or want you.
I'm so use to being on my own i have no idear how to let anouther in to shair my space , its so very hard for me.
Understanding now that im a highly senstive person and and empath people drain me so easyley.
And this makes me with draw from people,
I never feel alone thoe, so may questions on my mind and constent insite.
I'm more worryed about the way the world is going and theses bloody corprets our goverments and rich eliets.....
But on a good note i love Nature it has helped me heal and inspired me with peace it fills me with it beauty it fills my heart with love when i'm sad it nurtures me.
I feel like ive come home to myself when im in Nature.
Not a day going by i dont find something beautful i has helped me heal my racing mind soothed it with its carmness and beauty.
Inriched my soul besides music nature has filled the emptyness inside.
Has given me the space to look deep within myself and look at the parts of myself i don't like and try to hide from where i can connecetd with spirit and get insite and messages.
I don't feel like an outsider with her birds and small animales.
I see beauty in all things a rock, a feather, a leaf the way the sun shines threw cloudes.
The brezze on my skin and face which feel's like it blows away all my worrys or makes me look at it in a diffrent prospective.
Nature was there when i needed space, when i needed to grive, or needed to energise i know it sounds silly but i feel loved by nature always have even as alittle girl.
her wounder and magic spoke to me.
Nature is magic with all her small secrets she will share if your quite anouth to lisen.
Her chidren become yours like my little bird friends.
My maggies , willy wagtails and peewees
not to forget my handsome larry the lizord lol lol lol
I want peace.... This is where i get it .
I have alot i want to talk about the things that fill me with insprashion.
so much stuff but i feel so little time.
I was once tolled about 3 years ago by a male pyshic you will never meet the one your not meant to have a partner this liftime.
It really dosnt worry me anymore it's not the be all or end all ..... I think im so use to being on my own now and having to look after my mum i just don't have time between her and work i bearly get the time to do the things i want to do.... always doing things for anouther.
But atlast i have made two good friends who are open minded and spiritual like me mel and Carline.
I never went looking it just happened and i'm so greatful frome the bottom of my heart for meeting them.
I have had so many lerning lessions the things i went threw i know see them as lessions.
I have also did a coupel of past life regresshions only small ones i whish to put on here.
In which i will.
Life is a lession its up to you how it changes you.
Bitter or compasshonet.

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Today up and down

14/2/2024

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Well I decided to start a new Blog,
Out with the old in with the new
I'm so over the bloody scammers on facebook , they will do anything to get money.
I'm quite tired today, just going with the flow.
I have no exspectashions, only of myself.
I am currently studying Hypno thearpy, QHHT
enjoying it, too so over the stupid scammers trying to suck you in
trying to make out the Dr's or men in the miltary using other peoples pics to suck vulnerable people in just to suck money out of them.
Its getting so bad..... I have finally come to peace and let go of my twin flame.
Its both physically and emoshionally painful and tireing.
I need to focuse on myself and this is what i'm doing.
Im finally doing inner mirror work of self love, I need to love me.
I don't need anouther to make me hole just my own love, iand i am quite happy being on my own.
I feel an inner peace which is what i crave for.
Maybe it's an Age thing lol lol lol.
I just want to grow mentaly and look after me....
thats the most important.
I still love my crystals i have an idear to do crystal videos also readings .
ONE STEP AT A TIME, ONE DAY AT A TIME, ONE MOMENT AT A TIME.
finally have friends who exceepted me as i am true friends.
we so despretly need rain so dry here horribal

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