I find that some things are on the net are overwheleming me so i'm just being abit quite I have been busy with work and home life. Also been looking into self love work i got abit upset and chatted with my guides i started crying well every one is saying i needed to love myself but they never say how to do this ....... I cryed i'm trying what am i serpose to do by myself flowers, take myself out for dinner make love to myself what what do i do they say treat yourself as you would your partner.... then i got well have you asked for help i stoped and thought well no i didn't ask yous.
I thought ok guides i need help show me where to look to find this stuff, I got lead back to Loiuse hay.
I love that ladies work.
I'm really trying to do this for myself, I also got today look at the way you treat people you treat them with respect don't you you respected there bounders, your perlight and respectful to others are you not , your strait to the point and dont play games or play with peoples feelings.
I thought yeah i don't well why do you let others do that to you.
I thought aahhh if people treat you with distrspected say it as it is and walk away.
let them know what you won't put up with.
I'm starting to do that with family memebers i do to them what i do at work, and its starting to work.
I know someone dosnt like it but tuff i'm tired.
I say i'm going to do this ill be back in 30 minets and then i will get this done then i do it now.
Also i noticed somthing in myself to ive noticed this twice now someone has rased there hand at me, not saying who its not work, I fliped i stood there looked them strait in the eye and said Go on hit me you want to hit me do it go on, they stop and then back off.
My father was not like this my baby brother was not like this i will not put up with this and god help anyone that did try to hit me because i think i would snap.
I was thinking in my car today i was missing my dad so much today i started crying my father was the light of my life he was the most beautiful gental peacful soul i ever knew my father was my rock the person who lisened to me....... I amired my father so much and wanted to be so much like him.
I never got to tell my father how much i admried him.
Everyone ive known that knew my father only ever spoke kindly and lovingly about him.
Same as my brother.
I want a man like my father, my father was 6 foot 2 dark hair and blue sparkely eyes.
I don't mean in looks but in manners i loved my uncle Clarey too he reminded me of clint estwood he loved liseing to charley pride so when i hear it i think of him
I thought ok guides i need help show me where to look to find this stuff, I got lead back to Loiuse hay.
I love that ladies work.
I'm really trying to do this for myself, I also got today look at the way you treat people you treat them with respect don't you you respected there bounders, your perlight and respectful to others are you not , your strait to the point and dont play games or play with peoples feelings.
I thought yeah i don't well why do you let others do that to you.
I thought aahhh if people treat you with distrspected say it as it is and walk away.
let them know what you won't put up with.
I'm starting to do that with family memebers i do to them what i do at work, and its starting to work.
I know someone dosnt like it but tuff i'm tired.
I say i'm going to do this ill be back in 30 minets and then i will get this done then i do it now.
Also i noticed somthing in myself to ive noticed this twice now someone has rased there hand at me, not saying who its not work, I fliped i stood there looked them strait in the eye and said Go on hit me you want to hit me do it go on, they stop and then back off.
My father was not like this my baby brother was not like this i will not put up with this and god help anyone that did try to hit me because i think i would snap.
I was thinking in my car today i was missing my dad so much today i started crying my father was the light of my life he was the most beautiful gental peacful soul i ever knew my father was my rock the person who lisened to me....... I amired my father so much and wanted to be so much like him.
I never got to tell my father how much i admried him.
Everyone ive known that knew my father only ever spoke kindly and lovingly about him.
Same as my brother.
I want a man like my father, my father was 6 foot 2 dark hair and blue sparkely eyes.
I don't mean in looks but in manners i loved my uncle Clarey too he reminded me of clint estwood he loved liseing to charley pride so when i hear it i think of him
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I also did more penjlum work about my twin i asked what is he friten to tell me. I got friten to face you as his true self, I thought i already know who he is ive known for years, I also got he has kids i pick up 2, and wife died i asked was this a lady who's name started with D i got yes i got upset becuase if it who i think it is there so lovley.... I also asked if there BI then i noticed somthing too they smoke i'm not shore if it's tabacko or weed.
Ive been having alot of probleams with my sinuses and puffness latley since the cold weather the ready also picked up with me having troubel breathing.
We have to wear masks again at work they make my sinuses play up and i get bad headcaks and i'm getting tight in the chest with breathing problaems i'm not shore weather this is the cold weather or if its from havesting, losen and hay any sort of grass couses my asthma to play up.
I can have a asthma attack near somone mowing grass.
I hate it i feel like im going to stop breathing the cold waether if its bad can do it and so can really steamy hot days. the waether can make me puffy.
Smoke can make me sick asthma again so can siggaret smoke its horribal perfumes and strong smelling things even disanfecten sprays pollen i'm just so god dame senstive.
But there's nothing more scarry then not being abeal to breath.
Stress is anouther factor if i cry to much or get anger or have a frite.
I get wheeze i'm woundering also since i had thoses bloody covid shots if this could be causeing more probleams too i only had 3 but i thought i was going to die that last one my heart raced badley i thought i was going to die i layed on my bed and meditateded once i mediated it setalled down.
Meditation has been my life saver beside walking in nature.
I try to be in as oftin as i can its my safe place the park is my heaven i feel at peace as soon as i'm there.
a Beautiful creame dog come up to me today and let me pat her she was so beautiful.
I'm going to try to keep away from the readings for awhile there confusing me ill get all this postive stuff then heaps of negative and it makes me over think gives me scatter brain.
I love Blance i try so hard to strive for blance........
Ive been having alot of probleams with my sinuses and puffness latley since the cold weather the ready also picked up with me having troubel breathing.
We have to wear masks again at work they make my sinuses play up and i get bad headcaks and i'm getting tight in the chest with breathing problaems i'm not shore weather this is the cold weather or if its from havesting, losen and hay any sort of grass couses my asthma to play up.
I can have a asthma attack near somone mowing grass.
I hate it i feel like im going to stop breathing the cold waether if its bad can do it and so can really steamy hot days. the waether can make me puffy.
Smoke can make me sick asthma again so can siggaret smoke its horribal perfumes and strong smelling things even disanfecten sprays pollen i'm just so god dame senstive.
But there's nothing more scarry then not being abeal to breath.
Stress is anouther factor if i cry to much or get anger or have a frite.
I get wheeze i'm woundering also since i had thoses bloody covid shots if this could be causeing more probleams too i only had 3 but i thought i was going to die that last one my heart raced badley i thought i was going to die i layed on my bed and meditateded once i mediated it setalled down.
Meditation has been my life saver beside walking in nature.
I try to be in as oftin as i can its my safe place the park is my heaven i feel at peace as soon as i'm there.
a Beautiful creame dog come up to me today and let me pat her she was so beautiful.
I'm going to try to keep away from the readings for awhile there confusing me ill get all this postive stuff then heaps of negative and it makes me over think gives me scatter brain.
I love Blance i try so hard to strive for blance........
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