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Hade a great day

24/5/2024

Hade a good day today I brout myself some White roses for myself today lovley There's a big fullmoon tonight its masive i'm still getting ichy eyes ive just been so busy Ive decided to back off on my twin i know his marryed i will not intfear in his life.
I have to be happy for him and let him go because hes marryed and has a really good life now, I'm really happy for him he got what he always wanted i whish him nothing but happyness.
I think this was what he was trying to show me, I can still send him prays i'm going to meditate tonight and have a chat with him and see what he whants to tell me.
My skin has been driving me nuts with ichyness must be somthing in the water.
My Luxe lashlift set turned up, I also got new shoes for work trouses and Brars very happy also had to get a new virus update for my computer.
I love my car I have work tomorrow I found a mantra i love i am so proude of myself I love myself.
It made me really happy.

I brout myself a very pretty heart shaped rose quartz to work with myself healing i will program it. I enjoyed my massage yesterday jacky dose my massages she also dose time line therapy i had a chate with her about doing some inner child wound healing we are going to do this in august and in her graden and because i know her and trust her it will be even better.
Part from that i havent been doing much eals ive just been too busy
Anyways i better get my stuff ready for work tomorrow i also whant to start into more of my self healing work.

Yep one of thoses days

16/5/2024

I woke up today not feeling very very good this morning lucky it was my day off woke up with a very upset stomic and my back and hips acking so i was not shore if i had a stomic virus was in alot a of pain feelt very off i'm allowing myself to rest i think my back maybe alittle out so painful i wanted to cry.
I do care about my twin very very much i don't think ill ever stop loving him but i also do not want to interfere in his life, he look's so happy.
This makes me feel happy.... I think hes marryed and i do not whish to interfere in his life.
Ive noticed he has alot of ladies following him.
This has kind of made me pull back as well.
But i have decided that i don't want to interfere and just walk my path maybe one day he might want to be my friend.
If not i have to exceept that too, i can pray for him i can send him good energy which makes me happy.
I like whish alot of love for every one, But i just at the moment i need to give myself some of my own love when i feel unwell i know i need to give myself my own love.
I really want to look after myself, I'm quite tired but i think this is pain.
I have also found out someone in my family is alittle unhappy with me and how my life is going.
I had a funny feeling about this, i can feel bad energy from people over the net.
My guides said send them loveand light they will deal with it.
I feel with My friend Melly and caraline i can be myself ive cryed many times in front of melly and caraline.
If it wasnt for melly i would have been a mess she's my angel i love her dearly, we have alot of things in comon.
Same as Cass shes shuch a beautiful soft sole im very blessed.
Why is it when i connceted with my twin i get dizzy and light headed, i feel it.

I hope hes ok i whish i could hug him i really need a hug from him im feeling alittle whimpy but that's because i feel alittle off, Ill get there I'm getting out of my way and just allowing things to be as it should.
I try to conneceted i want to chat with this man but i won't push myself into his life exspecahel if he is marryed as i have noticed a ring on his finger.
And i will not interfer in that, i do whish him so much happyness.
But i'm going to rest my back is really hurting
Ive been looking alot of crystals again. I picked up an extra shift on saterday so i let my tummy rest.
I hate it if i do make him anger i don't mean to and i apoligies i just over think.
I think maybe i'm to pushy i was so happy to see him, i'm trying but i don't want to try to hard so i don't get him anger.
I hate doing that i don't like making people anger.
I like to respected people and not push bounders.

Getting doweloades

13/5/2024

I didn;t go to work today my anckel fleared up lastnight and was in alot of pain might be the solar flares i had so much troubel sleeping as well, tossed and turning alot.
This stuff on tik tok about dating is crazy its turning me off, my guides just said go with the flow dont over think..... i think my twin want me to leave him alone so this is what i'm doing his life nothing to do with me going to mind my own busyness.
I'm sorting more and more of my room which is great ive also started my Self healing course i also found a course on healing and balancing the Aura i thought this is great.
I am connecting to a being called Melchizedek......
And my guide the one my friend said is white silver and gold i see them wearing a white cloke there hair is grey white or silver as some may safe they are also hollding a staff.
I also pick up solomon and the seals they said they will show me how to do this when i connected to this guide i would feel really light headed and a pain in my forhead i asked them to step back a coupel of times because the energy was so strong.
This guide is connected to Melchizedek and solomon and use syembols that help with shifting energy.
I was so excitted to connceted with this guide.
I had a download or informashion come threw i saw a large egg and the colour 's on this egg was stripes of brown copper and gold and it hade the jupitar symbol on it
Egg means fertilie growth rebirth and transformashion.
With the earthy colours of grounding jupitar symbol means its saying here that jupitar in astrolge means Guru upiter in astrology is the “Guru”, it takes us from ignorance to the light of wisdom. It represents knowledge, spirituality, religion, higher learning, research, philosophy, optimism

Man im feeling really sleepy all of a sudden I have work tomorrow so i need to get some rest after lastnight i do need a good rest i might try to pick up thursday shift to make up for today.
It was funny today i went and saw my friend mel and tony the boss came out he said i was going to introduse you to a really nice man the other day but i didn't have your number he went on a blind date to meet a girl and sent her money i thought ohh shit thats a scammer, he was traveling to meet her to give her more money he was in his 40's and was saying to tony he would do anythink for love.
I thought giving someone money is not love, that's buying love this is why i get pissed of when wiman go about you should be nasty and keep a man keen hes nothing unless he buys you this and that i thought what the fuck ..... this is bullshit thats not love that buying love love shouldnt be brout.
This bloody world is so twisted the more i see the more i want to keep to myself.
Ill just keep my heart for myself, to many selfish people I also looked on that womans hand that was saying that i noticed no engment ring no wedding band i just see a bitter soul.
Why is the world like this.
Anyways somthing funny i looked up male escorts jsut out of cureosty they have them here i thought what the hell really i never thought they where here in a country town lol lol lol.
I looked threw some pics Yeah/ nah had a giggel the russion man was a bit of an eye opener my god even the donkey was blushing thats all i can say.
Why is our world so fucked up .... also i dont want to bother my twin any more i get this feeling i'm pissing him of commenting on his profile.
I don't want to do that Even my guides said leave him alone.
When they say that i know i have to leave him alone, his life, im trying to find anouther place to find informashion beside's TIK TOK i just got go to tweeter and rumbel i have a reddit but have seen much on it, I want to find more informashion and have a brake from the other sites.
I'm not shore wather snap chat has anything like it.
music sings to my soul fills me with a love that nothing eals can touch besides Nature

Been so busy

12/5/2024

Very sleepy been busy the last few days with work and home, I had a reading from my new friend she pretty much clarfide what i was picking up, she stated i had 5 guides which was what i picked up the first one she said is sliver white, the second is blue and the thered is green the other 2 is red and orange.
my mine questions in my reading was work and myself with healing, she said in 5 years i will be doing more of my QHHT so i did do the right corse yessss, also she said im give to much to others and not to myself and my guides are making me so down i need to say no more offtin and do my things i whish to do.
So the self healing is what i really need to do for myself.
So i am doing the right thing, also i'm making a dischion for myself i've been thinking about it more days and day's i want to think about it more, something i want to exsprence.
I aske later to if i'm ment to walk alone she said there's two men one will not be the right fit it will just be love and intamcie the second will be fated spirit is bring this one.
Like my guides said don't worry about it it will happen when you lest exspected.
The other guy i think that might be the thing i'm trying to decided on i need to look int more i havent meet this person yet i havent meet iver yet.

Muummm look at the smokey quartz and angelite togeather muummm also i think my twin only come back into my life to tell me there ok there life is good and there happy.
Which is great i whish them nothing but the best.
I know im doing the right things for myself.
I just need to make time for myself doing the things i love more drawing, painting, music self love and pouring love back into myself because its burning me out.
I have a pretty pink note pad which i have to write self love in.
I stood infront of the mirror and really looked into my eyes and tolled myself i love you.
It was nice to hear that ......
I also had a great day today at work a nice young male worker i worked with today said i'm trying to meet my soul mate i said hun you have planty of time your still young, hes 32.
I think hes very very lonley so sad so many lonley sad people its really sad .
and so many young men and wimon hurting because they don't love themselves.
We are not tort to love ourselves
Its so painful watching people crying in pain because there hurting it makes me want to cry for them.
it's so sad, anyways im going because i need to do some meditation.

i sensed this 2 days ago

5/5/2024

Aaahh well better the devil you know i say i senses this 2 days ago I cryed my eyes out really cryed it still hurts alittle but i have my answer i don't hate you i never will i will forgive you give me time but i will never trust you ever ever again, no more chances my guides said if nothing happens or he dosnt talk to you by the 12 12 2024 you must shut the door and walk away,
Tonight was it for me i know the truth you where just anouther lesson same mistake i made yet again never again this is it for me ive hade enought i serpose your laughting your head off with your goupe of friends it was a good show wasnt it.
Thank you for showing me your truth of how heartless you are and for making me relise i have once again diluded myself in thinking you really did care about me or hand any feelings at all.
i think really it was just revenge because you really hated me.
you saw me as ugly fat and undeserbal old female .
i bet you and your girls friends are having a really good laught.
well you got what you wanted you wanted to humbal me make me feel like shit a crazy woman.
and you did it. it was all lies you never loved me not once i'm not your type to fat to old not sexy enought.
you know what ...i don't care any more i know in myself i'm a good person i did care and i did want the best for you.
but oh well dosnt matter any more its my own fault this time.
i fooled myself into somthing that wasnt there.
And i'm anger at myself i should have lisened to my guides and not have bothered they said it was over.
Now i really do know its over.
I'm not going to stop working on myself i will find ways to shut you out of my thoughts.
Ill let you watch me grow as i don't care any more.
My heart is closed to you now i will never Trust you ......
i whish you the best every day it will get better i whish you nothing but the best.
dosnt matter any more its not the end of the world i will focuse on what is good and whats right for me..... Thank you for my lesson .
You can tick your box now you got your revenge

I was waiting for it its over for good

4/5/2024

I was waiting for this and its happened i feelt it the last 2 days this is it for me no more good by my dear friend it was never ment to be i hope you find someone one day i have no more words if i hurt you some way i'm sorry but cant do this any more youve hurt me too much good luck on your life jurney and good bye forever

Finally got a inner answer

2/5/2024

I have finally made a dision with my twin i realsed i can'y just turn off my feel's and i love them i have loved them for years, i want to be his friend but its up to him i won't force myself into his life i won't affrected his life.
It's his path but i can love him on a soul leavel, i wanted you to know, i love you so very much in my eyes you are my best friend when i thought you where gorn it really hurt.
I still energtically talked to you i would talk to you about my day when i feelt lost i talked to you when i was in pain i talked to you, i have one piture of you i talk too.
I do them same with my father i talk to my father and brother this way as well.
I hope you don't think i'm crazy.
But thought's pop in my minded i feelt you last night, i saw you crying your so sad when your sad i'm sad i feel your tears when you cry i cry when your happy i'm happy.
I want to shair so much with you i hope you do the same with me.
I was anger and thought somthing terrabal my guides pulled me into line, i feelt really bad for what i thought.
I know you love roses and animales and nature i want to shair all the beauty that is here with you.
When i'm excitted i just want to shair it with you, my guides said be your friend please let me be your friend i want so much to talk to you more then anything.
If you want to talk to me this is ok i was so happy when you started to texted me as really you no mask nothing hidden.
It made me so happy as this is all ive ever wanted.
I want you to trust me and be my best friend i do care i do love you i can't stop i can't just swich it off.
I know your a gental person i love this side of you i'm not ashamed to see you cry ive seen it ive seen your loneyness.
I can't walk away from you it's too hard it brakes me too, i feel like i'm dieing inside.
But with what my giudes tolled me to do to be your friend gave me the peace i was looking for.
Please forgive me for thinking of u like your past i apoligies for this it is wrong belittling and controling it is wrong.

Every time i image i meet you i see myself sitting beside you on a green park bench talking with you holding you hand and kissing your hand gentely i want to hug you so much i look at the way some girls talk about you i don't like it because in my eyes its degradeing of who you are as a person but i say nothing it is what it is.
I respected you as aperon who has a heart and feelings i don't think alot of people see that i see a beautiful warm soul with a gental heart the way you love animales makes me see this also the way you nature makes me see this.
I'm so proude of you you have grown so far but it really dosnt matter about me its how you feel about you.
I'm going on my own self love jurney i want to put it on here i want to shair my affrimashions.
My work i'm doing with you if you want to try this its up to you.
the wound i see in myself is the same wound i see in you.
I want to help but this is up to you ..... i will not push this on you, as this is your path.
My beautifule dear soul friend i'm hear for you always always.
i saw you sitting at a big long wooden tabel seround by men and wiman some o;d some young some your age.
But there's no connection not even with the lady your engaged too, too thoughts popped in my head iver its because it's a work thing why this relashionship is so.
Or you just don't want to be alone.
I also don't want to put to much attenshion to you iver whise people from your past will follow you again. I don't want this for you you need peace..... your heart ,soul and body has had eneough of people useing you.
You deserve better, YOU deserve your own love, your own kindness your own compashion.
Its hard but the more you do it you feel stroneger.
I also asked for sines from the universe and i'm getting them.
Any ways my dear soul friend i whish you nothing but a beautiful day.
Many hugs to you ..... keep smiling praying for you.

not to bad of a day

30/4/2024

Just on utube liseing to music liseing to raise your weapon, ive got some of my green house done. Not all of it going to do a charkra cleanse and balance tonight i feel like i need it.
Went again for anouther nice walk chatted with the magpies i would like to have a pet maggie how cool would that be, but i wouldnt because i could get in troubel i love them so much they make me laught.
Im trying to get mum's chook to eat out of my hand lol lol lol no sucsess yet i chat with her she;s a silky so cute, she has a sweet face.
I telll her she's pretty she just looks at me.
I;m going to ask Pania my friend if there's a place up queens land that you can visit dolfins i want to spend some time with my soul sister, she's an amasing crystal healer and reiki healer.
The places she visits up there are amasing so beautifule from what ive seen in videos , im so glade i meet her threw jacky, still miss jacky my crystal healing teacher.
But i feel her around sometimes and talk to her.

Im very blessed with the people i have in my life i don't have many but atlest there true and authtic I am authantic so i attracted authantic.
I reamber something i read and watched on edgar cayce, Move more drink planty of fluides and keep your charkras Blanced and clear.
I really feel i learnt my lesson this time, well i bloody hope so i kick myself up the ass if i haven't lol lol lol that would quite funny wouldnt it.
I;m ver proude of myself as im taking my power back. Thats something i don't want happening again not giving my power away to others, i really need to learn this lesson with family.
It hard when you have a codpendent mother.
Don't get me wrong i love my mother but she won't do anything to help herself with healing, But as i have learnt only you can change yourself, you can't change others.
They have to want to do it them selves.
Im now ready to start attracting my soul partner into my life.... Ive been looking at quiltes i want to grow in myself that i want to attrackted in this partner, A soul paterner is not a twin flame.
Its just someone you can meet like a soul mate or kindred sprirt into your life to have as a partner to grow with , i like the sould Kindred spirit more it's more lighter and positive.
The door is finally closed to my twin we learnt what we learnt and its over.
Thank you twin and the universe for my lesson.

I know this may sound werid but i wounder if other people think of a word like say Peace or Faith and just feel the energy of that word ive only started doing it in the last coupel of years ill say a word and try to feel its vibrashion. Like i say peace over and over or love and allow myself to feel that word.
Or i will sit with myself like checking in on my energy and see if theres tenshion and energy stuck.
I have also been asking my guides what my soul partner will be like i don't know why but Dolfins just popped into my head when i asked ok thats odd.
Maybe he loves the ocean i keep seeing Surfbord, He could like bright colours orange red, bright eletric blue. And Turqoise.
I won't meet him on the internet, i will meet this man face to face when start traveling more.
i just heard starting going to abrorignal sites this man could be intrested.
Somthing about his eyes there a strange shape, But i will love them.
He will love the starts too. and also likes his quite time and Nature as well.
Kindred spirit Ill like his smile it will be warm and light up his face.
Kind of reminds me of that guy in deep blue the guy with dolfins.
My guides just said don't worry we wil guide you we are already sending you and giving you sines.

I also heard Trust i also smellt my grand mothers perfume tonight i think she around she was also a very strong lady, i miss her.
I found her so magical i loved her garden it was beautiful filled with wounder and magic.
Im starting to get tried time to do some charkra healing Night all.

6th day of Holidays

27/4/2024

Well the 6th day of my holidays Had a really bad sleep lastnight i started to dose off then woke up about 12:30 then couldnt get to sleep again till 2:30 i also tryed to get on and write on here but the signal keeped cutting out id say there was a police rade lastnight because this is what happens they jam the internet signal so that the drag sellers can't contacted each other which knocks out the signal for everyones WIFI its so anoughing.
When i was in my 20's drugs where never heard of here, there was dope smokers thats all.
Since ive hit my late 30's and 40's and we have have overseas workers and diffrent migrants come here work is hard to get for the avrage australain as the coprates don't want to hire you they only want Visa workers because the gavourmet pay there way.
And drugs hay sky rocketed ice is really bad here, its so sad alot of the younger australians have moved away from here because there is no promise of work.
They want to make Tamworth the molty cultral center of Austrlia full of muslims, Ausians, african and indians.
But they conplain that the younger Australains are moving away, they don't give a shit about the Abroginals, same as the USA, The WEF has weiseled into Australia, the want us to be like china.
I'm so glade i never had children i feel so sorry for them the Club of Rome Is behind all of the they want to kill off as many people as they can the Evil people.
They belive there gods and we are nothing.
It makes me soooo anger im sending so much angel energy to this i am meeting more and more like minded souls who can see this.
There liying to us about the Green agaender they are destroying the earth and animales.
I'm so anger about this this is not how it should be.
So im working with my sirapthim angels to try to change this energy we need to meditate and pray more to change this but so many are brain washed by medida and in shools.
I started seeing alot of this in 2006 onwoulds i was drawn to things by music and diffrent articals whish my guides showed me.
Im A truth seecker look for other trutrh Seekers to work togeather.

And with my twin even thouhg i love him i feel he wants me to leave him alone so i am doing just that, leaving him alone, my guides keep telling me to leave him alone and its over nohing will come of this and i feel it in my heart now .... Ive stoped crying and went back to consatrating on me.
Its time for me to love me and make myself stronger in myself.
If i meet someone new so be it if i don't that's ok too.
I gave it to god.
I keep feeling i might meet someone on the coast avrage hight, sandy hair, bluey green eyes, loves the ocean, and maybe surfing., Loves old books and second hand book shops i see shells as well.
When they smile there face lights up. Very opened minded calm and quite.
Loves the peace and quite.
I just don't want to torture myself anymore for someone who dosnt want me.
I can see the tell tail sines.
This time it is over, but i am happy for him and whish him nothing but happyness, he's meet his soul mate his soul partner, somone that loves him, i am happy he deserves it.
Just like i desever love and happyness too.
Anyways i will write more later.... got stuff to do want to claense my room.

A little down today

1/4/2024

I feel quite sad this afternoon went and got some food from my fur baby this afternoon, I felt sad and started crying in my car.
I tryed not to let anyone see me.......
Ive been trying to find pretty animashions so i can get back into some creative animashion's i like doing this i also need to get into my Rendering and daz again.
My neathew joshy and my brother helped me start biuliding my green house.
I just have to put the mess on it....
I just want to cry my eyes out today ...... i want to clear and cleanse my charkras tonight.
Work was good today, got a big hug from one of the residense today it was lovley she has the most beautiful warm hugs.....I just want to cry my eyes out.

I'm so proude of my little nethew he's turning out just like his dad, likes to learn and build things my brother and joshy my baby brothers son
Ive been waering my rose quarts Heart alot more i really love it now, i programed it with self love.
I had a good day but quite tired just busy busy busy.
I have shuch a great idear for my green house.
But i will take a photo when i finish this will be my little sacreat place where i can read sudy mediatate ground, do readings art work crystal healing serounding by nature.

These;s are some of the ferns i'm going to put into my green house This weather is weard morning its cool then it gets very hot in the afternoon.
I just put my massager on my back so nicceeeee it looks like a crab. Lol lol lol
Its making me sleepy.
I think its a great idear i keep putting my thoughts down.
Its really funny i know i feel realxed in nature and under my tree but even looking at photos of nature makes me feel relaxed as well lovley.
I like the druids but i like the pic's from scottland you can get pic witchcraft as well.
I found a book on celtic shamanism i loved it, working with the elaments of nature.
Understand diffrent plants and there propates.
I went back to looking at a book i have called Vibrational healing through the chakras with light,sound,crystals and aromatherapy. ive read it but i love looking at it.