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Cold weather

11/6/2024

Been Cold the last few days my asthma has also been playing up and my siniuses also i think this is whats making my asthma play up, I have been aking alot and not feeling 100% maybe its just the weather.
I've had a really busy week my birthday wasnt that great my brother brout me a large Hello kitty its so cute, my mothers dog try to grab and chew it up.
Then thursday i had to work then i had friday off and worked a coupel of days in a rowe my anckel anded up flearing up so i didn't end up going to work, I don't feel so great tonight i don't know why.
Ive been very up and down in moods since thursday last week i started crying out of no waer.
This moring i feelt moody and sad wanting to cry.
Maybe its hormones maybe lowe iron.
I blanced my charkras lastnight, I want to do it again tonight as well as charge up my charkras.
Again Iris by goo goo dolls has been haunting me today again i come up 5 times and that persons page has been coming up onto my page as well the one that looks alot like my twin.
I try not to think about him its his life and i will not intafear he choise his path, i whish him nothing but happyness.
I'm just living my life and focusing on me and what i want now.
I was going to go away for a drive to Armidale for the day i wanted to see the waterfalls there.
Waterfall way was one place there's also an old homestead i wanted to see as well I want to go next saterday just for a drive away.

I finally made a bage on facebook for self love intuition and nature i finally did it also i come across a horribal vid on tik tok of lions eating each other i thought omg i never thought that it was horribal it frecked me out it still makes me upset i never seen anythink so horribal also a male lion killed a female lion not shore why it was horribal things like this really upset me i found a lump on my tummy i need to get it looked out its a hard lymth gland if it hasnt settaled down by sunday i will call the Dr to look at it.
I did burse that part a week ago it could be just toxiens i don't feel its anything bad but to be shore i will go to the Drs if it dosnt settal i know pain can cause lymth glades to flare up too.
Just starting to feel sleepy anyways going to go as i have work tomorrow.

June 03rd, 2024

3/6/2024

Well it's cold tonight going to be a cold morning tomorrow winter is here Now. Well I thought i was my twin but i was Wrong very very wrong, this man look's like him but when i heard his Voice it's not him, i Though now it all makes sense, so i'm back to square one again, I'm not going to worry about it no more looking i have to exceept he is gorn it hurts so badly but atlest he is with me in spirit i swear he was alive the sines i was getting.
The other day i heard that song he played for me over the phone Goo Goo dolls Iris 7 times yesterday, 6 time on tik tok then over the radieo i thought what the hell .... I'm being haunted.
I dream about him now and then sometimes i feel him about me i get words come into my head.
I have to Exceept that he has crossed over, and leave it there.
My heart yurns for him just to hear his voice it was just never ment to happen i meeting each other.
I meditated lastnight i saw myself in a white dress bear feet near a stream there was a tree to the left of me, i cound see the stream rippling over the rocks and stones.
I walked up to me on my right side and scarred me he appoligised for scaring me.
We chatted and look down at the rocks in the stream with the diffrent shapes sizes and colours he fould me a stone the size oof a 50 cent peace in the shape of a white heart, and placed it in my parm and softly looked at me.
I said to him thank you, so you know i miss you do you know a piece of me of me left with you and i have never been the same.
I looked at him with tears in my eyes ive only ever loved you now i only ever have you in my heart.
Now i just have to live again.
And hope ill meet someone specahel that i can love again and share my life .
Then you disapeared from my site.

I still can not belive how much this man looks like you but i could tell from his energy it was not you, so now i am back on my path I still have this feeling you are here but unshore where i keep hearing Vanuatu also figi but new zeland stands out too.
You hair is cut short but not shaved the top has spikness i see dark framed glasses the ones bikies whear and a big duffel bag like the army has .
Your very much a loner .
But i could be wrong, i'm not worryed anymore i'm getting tired of thinking about it.
What will be will be, if god chocies me anouther partner then thats what it will be.
I will forever be haunted by you and will forever miss you.
When ever i what Wetheing hights i think of you .....
I love you and will never stop loving u.......
I don't know why but i just got an image of an old church small but old

Its Raining Tonight

31/5/2024

Its rainig tonight they said that rain was coming, I feel alittle lowe in myself tonight, So many thought's going around and around in my head, I feel alittle sad now and again ill start crying now and then but i'm not depressed.
I asked god for guidence lastnight i asked for sines on what i should do.
I keep asking why has this person come back into my life?
The question is always why? do they want to hurt me? do they hate me? do they want revenge?
Do they think i want an apolige from them answer is No they never owed me anything i never owned them.
They have there own life and path to walk.
I only ever wanted to see them happy and i am happy there Marryed and have there own family.
I have to stop thinking about them and leave them alone.
I don't know why they added me ? they don't want to be my friend? they dont want to talk to me?
Or maybe there just intrested in my readings so many thoughts in my head.
So many triggers arising , all i know is i will never let let anyone hurt me again.
Im just focusing on me.
Somtimes i wounder are they in a open relashionshipand there just looking for a good time with people.
I was trying to understand why i was so drawn to them why i feelt i knew them, i'm just so confused.
Or was i just brout into there life to guide them help them heal.
Then i think why would they want revenege when i have done nothing but whish them the best.
I thought are they really my twinflame or am i just beliveing into a silly stupid huminesed thought that us despreat humans i looking and longing for.
When i look threw tik tok i see nothing but bad stories about realshionships it all games man only like ruff wiman that sleep around or wiman that treat man badly that men don't like nice girls or ladies.
The way people treat each other just confuse's me i just like being trait down the line i don't play around with peoples feelings and i exspceted the same from others.

I have also made a new spiritual friend from work she helped me with feeling overwhealmed her name id tiffaney she said she been picking up things and seeing spirit since she was 6, she picked up 2 men around me, she said one is from my past an is friten of rejecshion, she said i could take ages to hear from this person.
The second one is one i will meet soon, he might be alittle yunger then me not much she said he could be 6 foot 2 to 6 foot 4 with hair that is sholder langth sunkissed blonde that skin that tans easy, blue green eyes that are unnewsual, which is what ive been picking up she said this man will travel abit then come back to Australia he is forhen australian she said this man will have hardly any family no children and said we will be very good friends that makes me happy.
she said he will be open minded and spiritual, i feel this man own's his own tarot set and penjulam keeps standing out. Hes into healing could be into Reiki loves the asian country's.
Reminds me of Davin the guy i meet at the angel shop who was very spritual and from Canada.
I will never forget meeting him when he hugged me there was a big surge of energy that went between us two like a kundaleny rising it was werid i have never exsprinced it with anyone since only him my legs where shacking i feelt like i was going to fall down all i reamber is him saying he keep triping on energy. Very lovley soul it was his Aura i spotted first it was golden yellow and so big.
I reamber it still all i thought was wow look at the sise of that guys aura. LOL LOL LOL
I'm still doing my healing and saying my mantras i feel im doing well mybe that's why i feel emoshional looking at unheal wounds so in a way that's good.
It was werid i saw a bee and it landed on my car i thought huh maybe it thought it was a flower lol lol lol.
I love the rain but i won't be abeal to sit under my tree i won't be happy about that.
I love my tree its the best thing that has come into my life.
And i'm going to meet up with Joanne to get my reading site up and running i have a camer i have never tryed it iver maybe its time to test it.

Pretty good day

27/5/2024

Well i had a pretty good day today my asthma is playing up alittle today, i don't know why maybe it's the cold Well if my twin reads this i just wanted you to know i got a message threw my penjlum that you want me to leave you alone so now i have got this message i will do just that.
I'm not anger or hurt i knew this was going to happen i think you have been trying to tell me for years to let you go i know you have a lovley partner now you life is full of love and happyness and i wouldnt whish you any more happyness and i promise i will not bother you again i apoligise for deserbeing you live i whish you so much happyness i know you are your at peace i will not follow you or contacted you again, i serander and set you free.
Lesson is now learnt and i can now move on doing my own things. Thank you for entering my life thank you for the blessings and the lessions.
Ok i feel i needed to do this.
Also my dear friend Joanne at work has pushed me to do readings online threw tik tok and Utube online and vie Zoom.
I have to set everything up i love my friend jojo she has shuch a beautifule energy she makes me so happy being around she makes me laught i love people like this Zelina dose too and so dose Ofila .
Its just setting everything up.
I'm still working on my self love,

Its a course from umdey buy a your man the Transformational self love healing course hes very intresting.
Ive already been starting my self love One of these's things is having alone time time for yourself Which on my day off i try to do twice....... a day.
Im so tight in my back
Its so cold tonight also i woundeing if i have meet my twin flame i'm not shore now i thought i did but im not 100% shore.
im woundering if this is just all human hope on somthing deeper i know we have male and female energy when we balance this we have more enlightenment.
I also gorn back to Aurtmatic writing which is giveing me alot of informashion

today 27 5 2024 time 14.30
Don't look for love outside of yourself, look for love within. be your own best friend.
When you look for love you never find it or worse you attracted toxic clingy controling people.
when you love yourself you attracked blanced harmoneouse soul connections.
Balance is key/ balance both the male and female side of yourself which gives you blance and peace.

ask yourself
is it a lesson or blessing?
is it a soultie or soul conntracted.
is it a unhealded soul wound.

look at it feel it what emoshions a rise from this person or place, do you feel like crying or do you feel anger hurt pain saddness heartbrake.

reamber to put yourself first love yourself first, reamber not what to settal for.

Do little things of self love
Pamper yourself, look at ways to pamper yourself.
* Look after your hands clean clip tidey your nails cream them
* streach - yoga- walking- gardening- spending time with your animales
* Eat clean and healthy write it down in a journal so you can see what your eating.
* dress nicley where pretty colours
* do your hair neatly cream your face
* meditate with rose quartz all around you while meditating on self love

Hade a great day

24/5/2024

Hade a good day today I brout myself some White roses for myself today lovley There's a big fullmoon tonight its masive i'm still getting ichy eyes ive just been so busy Ive decided to back off on my twin i know his marryed i will not intfear in his life.
I have to be happy for him and let him go because hes marryed and has a really good life now, I'm really happy for him he got what he always wanted i whish him nothing but happyness.
I think this was what he was trying to show me, I can still send him prays i'm going to meditate tonight and have a chat with him and see what he whants to tell me.
My skin has been driving me nuts with ichyness must be somthing in the water.
My Luxe lashlift set turned up, I also got new shoes for work trouses and Brars very happy also had to get a new virus update for my computer.
I love my car I have work tomorrow I found a mantra i love i am so proude of myself I love myself.
It made me really happy.

I brout myself a very pretty heart shaped rose quartz to work with myself healing i will program it. I enjoyed my massage yesterday jacky dose my massages she also dose time line therapy i had a chate with her about doing some inner child wound healing we are going to do this in august and in her graden and because i know her and trust her it will be even better.
Part from that i havent been doing much eals ive just been too busy
Anyways i better get my stuff ready for work tomorrow i also whant to start into more of my self healing work.

Getting alittle overwhelmed

21/5/2024

I find that some things are on the net are overwheleming me so i'm just being abit quite I have been busy with work and home life. Also been looking into self love work i got abit upset and chatted with my guides i started crying well every one is saying i needed to love myself but they never say how to do this ....... I cryed i'm trying what am i serpose to do by myself flowers, take myself out for dinner make love to myself what what do i do they say treat yourself as you would your partner.... then i got well have you asked for help i stoped and thought well no i didn't ask yous.
I thought ok guides i need help show me where to look to find this stuff, I got lead back to Loiuse hay.
I love that ladies work.
I'm really trying to do this for myself, I also got today look at the way you treat people you treat them with respect don't you you respected there bounders, your perlight and respectful to others are you not , your strait to the point and dont play games or play with peoples feelings.
I thought yeah i don't well why do you let others do that to you.
I thought aahhh if people treat you with distrspected say it as it is and walk away.
let them know what you won't put up with.
I'm starting to do that with family memebers i do to them what i do at work, and its starting to work.
I know someone dosnt like it but tuff i'm tired.
I say i'm going to do this ill be back in 30 minets and then i will get this done then i do it now.
Also i noticed somthing in myself to ive noticed this twice now someone has rased there hand at me, not saying who its not work, I fliped i stood there looked them strait in the eye and said Go on hit me you want to hit me do it go on, they stop and then back off.
My father was not like this my baby brother was not like this i will not put up with this and god help anyone that did try to hit me because i think i would snap.
I was thinking in my car today i was missing my dad so much today i started crying my father was the light of my life he was the most beautiful gental peacful soul i ever knew my father was my rock the person who lisened to me....... I amired my father so much and wanted to be so much like him.
I never got to tell my father how much i admried him.
Everyone ive known that knew my father only ever spoke kindly and lovingly about him.
Same as my brother.
I want a man like my father, my father was 6 foot 2 dark hair and blue sparkely eyes.
I don't mean in looks but in manners i loved my uncle Clarey too he reminded me of clint estwood he loved liseing to charley pride so when i hear it i think of him

I also did more penjlum work about my twin i asked what is he friten to tell me. I got friten to face you as his true self, I thought i already know who he is ive known for years, I also got he has kids i pick up 2, and wife died i asked was this a lady who's name started with D i got yes i got upset becuase if it who i think it is there so lovley.... I also asked if there BI then i noticed somthing too they smoke i'm not shore if it's tabacko or weed.
Ive been having alot of probleams with my sinuses and puffness latley since the cold weather the ready also picked up with me having troubel breathing.
We have to wear masks again at work they make my sinuses play up and i get bad headcaks and i'm getting tight in the chest with breathing problaems i'm not shore weather this is the cold weather or if its from havesting, losen and hay any sort of grass couses my asthma to play up.
I can have a asthma attack near somone mowing grass.
I hate it i feel like im going to stop breathing the cold waether if its bad can do it and so can really steamy hot days. the waether can make me puffy.
Smoke can make me sick asthma again so can siggaret smoke its horribal perfumes and strong smelling things even disanfecten sprays pollen i'm just so god dame senstive.
But there's nothing more scarry then not being abeal to breath.
Stress is anouther factor if i cry to much or get anger or have a frite.
I get wheeze i'm woundering also since i had thoses bloody covid shots if this could be causeing more probleams too i only had 3 but i thought i was going to die that last one my heart raced badley i thought i was going to die i layed on my bed and meditateded once i mediated it setalled down.
Meditation has been my life saver beside walking in nature.
I try to be in as oftin as i can its my safe place the park is my heaven i feel at peace as soon as i'm there.
a Beautiful creame dog come up to me today and let me pat her she was so beautiful.
I'm going to try to keep away from the readings for awhile there confusing me ill get all this postive stuff then heaps of negative and it makes me over think gives me scatter brain.
I love Blance i try so hard to strive for blance........

reading pendulum reading

19/5/2024

Feeling alot more better in myself back to work tomorrow also i got a reading from my spiritual friend about if love will ever enter my life i know i need to love myself and i am working on that she did me a five card reading , this is it.
The Tower
The King of Cups
Five of Swords
The Devil
Knight of Cups
and on the bottom of the deck we have the Three of Swords

This reading is indicative of healing that needs to occur in order to bring in a transformation in your life. There is healing in regard to emotional stress and self sabotaging behaviours. I feel as though there is energy there of "what if I put myself out there and this doesn't work out" "what if I pour my energy in to a situation and this doesnt work out?"
This is the case with any situation in life. Any relationship. We are none the wiser when we start a relationship as to whether this is going to work out or whether this person is going to be here to teach us lessons. There are fear based self sabotaging behaviours that need to be addressed before you find ultimate happiness. Know that you can find ultimate happiness (The Knight of Cups who comes forward with romance) but let go of the fear based behaviours (The Devil). The King of Cups is the man waiting for you. He is emotionally balanced, mature, devoted, intuitive, supportive and compassionate. But in order for you to receive all of these things from another person, you must look within yourself first and foremost and give them to yourself. Then, and only then, will these things be reflected back to you in a partner.
I have split the deck to the Judgement card which is your wake up call and to take a look at what your inner calling is. Through the pursuit of your inner calling will you be given the King of Cups. But you must take a look at your fear based behaviours first and eliminate them to take a leap of faith. When we take the leap of faith is when we are given divine happiness.

I also did a pendulum reading on my twin and asked why they returning into my life, the first answer was yes there my twin flame, we have a soul countracted this soul countracted is to do with forgivness and helping each other heal which involves self love i also heard divine truth and earth healing and raising the vibrashion on this earth when you love yourself the earths vibrashion will rise.
we are guides to each other , lessions to learn from each other then move on in our lives.
I also got he has a fiancee as well as a mistress on the side.
I was showen he will meet a lasy that is perfected for him 5 foot 11 mouse coloured hair wavey hazel eyes very thin tiny may have two boys this woman will be very quite won't say much and will fit his persnalty very well.

I asked about my life partner and how far away i got could meet this person in 4 to 5 years 3 is a chance no i havent meet them yet, It will be when i am looking around australia and look at abriginal stites i heard cave pantings site seeing also coast line, I thought hes a Cave man lol lol lol I got foreigner who now lives in australia loves nature, opened minded, loves surfing if not loves the ocean, meditation, Bush walking i see rain forests, very grounded stabel i also get dolfins with this man as well, for some resion he reminds me of steve erwin very passionet hes nature is passionet deep thinker, very easy to talk too but a good lisener hes words heal others hes a healer intrested in earth based healing methords like shamanism has alot of light within him i see a yellow coloured light he also likes to help others when he can i just feel this sunny warmth my guides will guide me to him when the time is right
just have to work on myself consentate on me and do what i love.

Yep one of thoses days

16/5/2024

I woke up today not feeling very very good this morning lucky it was my day off woke up with a very upset stomic and my back and hips acking so i was not shore if i had a stomic virus was in alot a of pain feelt very off i'm allowing myself to rest i think my back maybe alittle out so painful i wanted to cry.
I do care about my twin very very much i don't think ill ever stop loving him but i also do not want to interfere in his life, he look's so happy.
This makes me feel happy.... I think hes marryed and i do not whish to interfere in his life.
Ive noticed he has alot of ladies following him.
This has kind of made me pull back as well.
But i have decided that i don't want to interfere and just walk my path maybe one day he might want to be my friend.
If not i have to exceept that too, i can pray for him i can send him good energy which makes me happy.
I like whish alot of love for every one, But i just at the moment i need to give myself some of my own love when i feel unwell i know i need to give myself my own love.
I really want to look after myself, I'm quite tired but i think this is pain.
I have also found out someone in my family is alittle unhappy with me and how my life is going.
I had a funny feeling about this, i can feel bad energy from people over the net.
My guides said send them loveand light they will deal with it.
I feel with My friend Melly and caraline i can be myself ive cryed many times in front of melly and caraline.
If it wasnt for melly i would have been a mess she's my angel i love her dearly, we have alot of things in comon.
Same as Cass shes shuch a beautiful soft sole im very blessed.
Why is it when i connceted with my twin i get dizzy and light headed, i feel it.

I hope hes ok i whish i could hug him i really need a hug from him im feeling alittle whimpy but that's because i feel alittle off, Ill get there I'm getting out of my way and just allowing things to be as it should.
I try to conneceted i want to chat with this man but i won't push myself into his life exspecahel if he is marryed as i have noticed a ring on his finger.
And i will not interfer in that, i do whish him so much happyness.
But i'm going to rest my back is really hurting
Ive been looking alot of crystals again. I picked up an extra shift on saterday so i let my tummy rest.
I hate it if i do make him anger i don't mean to and i apoligies i just over think.
I think maybe i'm to pushy i was so happy to see him, i'm trying but i don't want to try to hard so i don't get him anger.
I hate doing that i don't like making people anger.
I like to respected people and not push bounders.

Big day

15/5/2024

What a day started today one day at a time one minet at a time no more tears flow ive finally let go for good i don't want to feel anymore as soon as my toughts sway i shift to something eals liseing to Deadmau 5 , I'm not going to be a Doormat for anyone any more and i'm inforcing my bounders.
Puting my power back into my own hands i love it, iT makes you feel stronger.
Started on an affrimashion on looking after my body today i keeped visulising eating alot more vegtabels focus on vegtabels.
Cuting out breads, pasta, icecream, bisscut's cakes sweets.
Its about getting my energy back, had stue tonight yummmm lots of vegtables.
The more i look aftermyself the more my body will thank me.
I want to like myself on all leavels.
I know this sounds werid but why is it when i start opening my heart and try again i attracted so many men I'm not looking i don't put it out there there probley just scammers anyway lol lol lol.
I'm still tossing up about the other thing lol lol lol ive been looking, just somthing i want to exsprecence., Before i get way to old, lol lol lol.
I looked at something today and i thought yep thats why i walked away i know i did the right thing.
I don't hate them i don't whish them bad i hope oneday they will meet someone that is perfected for them and they have the love they want.
I can pray for them and send them healing energy.
But i need to ask there guides first, I don't need anyone to help me heal the little child in me i just need to love her.
I also need to send love and healing to my mother because she loved me the only way she knew how.

I'm not blaming anyone i am tacking responablity for my own acshions and thoughts Whisch is a good healthy thing, I have to clean my Fish tank tomorrow poor babies.
My back neck and sholders are tight and sore ive also been grinding my teeth, stress overthinking.
I'm not worrying my guides said that the right man will come into my life at the right time, i just have to get out there enjoy life and see the things i want to see.
Theres aborginal sites i want to see around here, I will look up on the net and do some reserch.
Because i have aborginal desendents my grate grate groundfather i can doing paintings.
There artwork is beautifule.
I'm quite proude of how far ive come in myself.
anyway i'm going to get into my course want to rest.

Getting doweloades

13/5/2024

I didn;t go to work today my anckel fleared up lastnight and was in alot of pain might be the solar flares i had so much troubel sleeping as well, tossed and turning alot.
This stuff on tik tok about dating is crazy its turning me off, my guides just said go with the flow dont over think..... i think my twin want me to leave him alone so this is what i'm doing his life nothing to do with me going to mind my own busyness.
I'm sorting more and more of my room which is great ive also started my Self healing course i also found a course on healing and balancing the Aura i thought this is great.
I am connecting to a being called Melchizedek......
And my guide the one my friend said is white silver and gold i see them wearing a white cloke there hair is grey white or silver as some may safe they are also hollding a staff.
I also pick up solomon and the seals they said they will show me how to do this when i connected to this guide i would feel really light headed and a pain in my forhead i asked them to step back a coupel of times because the energy was so strong.
This guide is connected to Melchizedek and solomon and use syembols that help with shifting energy.
I was so excitted to connceted with this guide.
I had a download or informashion come threw i saw a large egg and the colour 's on this egg was stripes of brown copper and gold and it hade the jupitar symbol on it
Egg means fertilie growth rebirth and transformashion.
With the earthy colours of grounding jupitar symbol means its saying here that jupitar in astrolge means Guru upiter in astrology is the “Guru”, it takes us from ignorance to the light of wisdom. It represents knowledge, spirituality, religion, higher learning, research, philosophy, optimism

Man im feeling really sleepy all of a sudden I have work tomorrow so i need to get some rest after lastnight i do need a good rest i might try to pick up thursday shift to make up for today.
It was funny today i went and saw my friend mel and tony the boss came out he said i was going to introduse you to a really nice man the other day but i didn't have your number he went on a blind date to meet a girl and sent her money i thought ohh shit thats a scammer, he was traveling to meet her to give her more money he was in his 40's and was saying to tony he would do anythink for love.
I thought giving someone money is not love, that's buying love this is why i get pissed of when wiman go about you should be nasty and keep a man keen hes nothing unless he buys you this and that i thought what the fuck ..... this is bullshit thats not love that buying love love shouldnt be brout.
This bloody world is so twisted the more i see the more i want to keep to myself.
Ill just keep my heart for myself, to many selfish people I also looked on that womans hand that was saying that i noticed no engment ring no wedding band i just see a bitter soul.
Why is the world like this.
Anyways somthing funny i looked up male escorts jsut out of cureosty they have them here i thought what the hell really i never thought they where here in a country town lol lol lol.
I looked threw some pics Yeah/ nah had a giggel the russion man was a bit of an eye opener my god even the donkey was blushing thats all i can say.
Why is our world so fucked up .... also i dont want to bother my twin any more i get this feeling i'm pissing him of commenting on his profile.
I don't want to do that Even my guides said leave him alone.
When they say that i know i have to leave him alone, his life, im trying to find anouther place to find informashion beside's TIK TOK i just got go to tweeter and rumbel i have a reddit but have seen much on it, I want to find more informashion and have a brake from the other sites.
I'm not shore wather snap chat has anything like it.
music sings to my soul fills me with a love that nothing eals can touch besides Nature