We hade rain at last It's been ages since we have had rain, it was a tunder storm one crack of lighting scared the crap out of me.
So many thought's running threw my head these's last coupel of day's Just lisening to slipknot Solway Firth.
I really love liseing to Slipknot, Avarta, Kiss.
Anyway going back to what i was going to start writing about.
These's last coupel of day's I have picked up an Energy of someone i use to comuncate with who i felt may have been my Twin flame.
But i'm very very unshore, as my twin pasted away years ago.
I try not to cry about it.... I was un shore if they have really passed or not.
I keep feeling they haven't but it could be me just hoping.
See when i was in my teens about 14, 15 i was dreaming about a tall man with dark hair sometimes when i meditated i would see this same man.
I was also drawing his face alot one of my dear Friends knew my pitures very well.
Fuuckkkk how weard is that i was just playing slipknot on utube and then the next song that popped up was GOOGOO dolls IRIS this is a song he played it over the phone.
That is fucken frecky..... Frecked me right out.
Maybe he has pasted over.
But i swear he's alive..... I don't know why but i get this strong gut feeling.
Anyways going back to the story when i turned 21 i saw a photo of a man as soon as i saw the face i thought i know you how do i know you this is just crazy then i just forgot about it, then again a few weeks later i saw anouther photo of this man, i thought i'm losing i know this man's face.
Anyway i just let it go and forgot about it then when i hit 23 again this man's face popped up i thought theres that man again i know his face .... I liked his voice.
Then just forgot about him again, then when i was 27 his face popped up again i thought there's that man again, i wanted to know more about him all i keeped thing was i know you i know you face.
Then i started chatting on yahoo and started chatting with a man and he was describing himself i thought ok... This was when i started to hear my Guides i could hear them very very clearly.
I heard this is him its the same person, I thought what the hell i'm going crazy.
The more we chatted the more my guides come threw stronger telling me this is the same person
I just thought it can't be that's scarry.
We where taking over the phone hear and there i really liked his voice. Exspechealy his voice.
I was also dreaming about this man then i started learning about the arch angels.
I noticed i wanted to change my room to colours of black and red with red candels.
And started wearing alot of black and red and dyed my hair black i also started wearing alot of black.
My friend said black makes you too pale.
Anyway i won't go on more any more about other things happening.
A coupel of years ago he pased away i was so heart broken.
What make's me so unhappy is we never got to meet face to face and i never got to ask him question's there was so many things i wanted to ask him and now i will never to the answers.
I miss him but am so unshore if what i picking up is right and i being hopful but sadly i will never know now.
I just have to be happy with this.
sometimes it's so hard, Iso i gave it to god ..... this is somthing only the prime creator can answer.
Out of my hands It is what it is.
This will forever Haunt me ..... when i saw your face your eyes i saw myself a diffrent version.
I dream about him every know and then i just whish you so much happyness but i want to stop tortuing myself with hoping your still here in flesh.
So many thought's running threw my head these's last coupel of day's Just lisening to slipknot Solway Firth.
I really love liseing to Slipknot, Avarta, Kiss.
Anyway going back to what i was going to start writing about.
These's last coupel of day's I have picked up an Energy of someone i use to comuncate with who i felt may have been my Twin flame.
But i'm very very unshore, as my twin pasted away years ago.
I try not to cry about it.... I was un shore if they have really passed or not.
I keep feeling they haven't but it could be me just hoping.
See when i was in my teens about 14, 15 i was dreaming about a tall man with dark hair sometimes when i meditated i would see this same man.
I was also drawing his face alot one of my dear Friends knew my pitures very well.
Fuuckkkk how weard is that i was just playing slipknot on utube and then the next song that popped up was GOOGOO dolls IRIS this is a song he played it over the phone.
That is fucken frecky..... Frecked me right out.
Maybe he has pasted over.
But i swear he's alive..... I don't know why but i get this strong gut feeling.
Anyways going back to the story when i turned 21 i saw a photo of a man as soon as i saw the face i thought i know you how do i know you this is just crazy then i just forgot about it, then again a few weeks later i saw anouther photo of this man, i thought i'm losing i know this man's face.
Anyway i just let it go and forgot about it then when i hit 23 again this man's face popped up i thought theres that man again i know his face .... I liked his voice.
Then just forgot about him again, then when i was 27 his face popped up again i thought there's that man again, i wanted to know more about him all i keeped thing was i know you i know you face.
Then i started chatting on yahoo and started chatting with a man and he was describing himself i thought ok... This was when i started to hear my Guides i could hear them very very clearly.
I heard this is him its the same person, I thought what the hell i'm going crazy.
The more we chatted the more my guides come threw stronger telling me this is the same person
I just thought it can't be that's scarry.
We where taking over the phone hear and there i really liked his voice. Exspechealy his voice.
I was also dreaming about this man then i started learning about the arch angels.
I noticed i wanted to change my room to colours of black and red with red candels.
And started wearing alot of black and red and dyed my hair black i also started wearing alot of black.
My friend said black makes you too pale.
Anyway i won't go on more any more about other things happening.
A coupel of years ago he pased away i was so heart broken.
What make's me so unhappy is we never got to meet face to face and i never got to ask him question's there was so many things i wanted to ask him and now i will never to the answers.
I miss him but am so unshore if what i picking up is right and i being hopful but sadly i will never know now.
I just have to be happy with this.
sometimes it's so hard, Iso i gave it to god ..... this is somthing only the prime creator can answer.
Out of my hands It is what it is.
This will forever Haunt me ..... when i saw your face your eyes i saw myself a diffrent version.
I dream about him every know and then i just whish you so much happyness but i want to stop tortuing myself with hoping your still here in flesh.
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