Had shuch a lovley Day went up to nundel and hanging rock visited my uncel drove up to Fern gully, going to try to visit again soon have to go up earlyer next time, Being up in Fern Gully makes me so happy i would love to be serounded by Ferns ahhh when my green house is finised i soon will be.
All that lush green the sweet cool air we are in autum at the moment leaves are finally changing diffrent colours mornings are getting cooler, day's are getting darker night's longer, nights with the wood heater watching flikering flames as they dance and sway.
I love staring into the flames and watch them dance diffrent colours of yellow orange and red.
Hear the wood spit and pop.
As well as feel the warm on my face and skin feeling like i'm rapped in a warm blanket, warming me like the rays of the sun feeling warm cosy and happy.
Like a big warm hug from a loveing parent .
I'm at the monet lisening to Loreena Mckennitt i lisend to her when i was studying wicca at rose cottage, i had so much fun, this music still makes me feel the magic.
I love the song bonny swans.
All that lush green the sweet cool air we are in autum at the moment leaves are finally changing diffrent colours mornings are getting cooler, day's are getting darker night's longer, nights with the wood heater watching flikering flames as they dance and sway.
I love staring into the flames and watch them dance diffrent colours of yellow orange and red.
Hear the wood spit and pop.
As well as feel the warm on my face and skin feeling like i'm rapped in a warm blanket, warming me like the rays of the sun feeling warm cosy and happy.
Like a big warm hug from a loveing parent .
I'm at the monet lisening to Loreena Mckennitt i lisend to her when i was studying wicca at rose cottage, i had so much fun, this music still makes me feel the magic.
I love the song bonny swans.
Its funny how the earth inspires me ive only started to channel my tree danny i love that tree he gives me energy when i tune into him i see soft pastel blue light soft and warm i feel happy there my energy levels are now starting to come back up.
My nature name is or wiccan name is Fern given to me by the fairys my beautiful soul sister annette where both swimming in a fresh stream up at barrten tops her nature name is Willow i was just standing in the water thinking what is my name when i looked over to the bank of the straem and heard fern Fern is your name i stopped a coupel of Ferns.
I smiled ferns are very protective as our found out recently.
I feel so happy when i;m around them.
My nature name is or wiccan name is Fern given to me by the fairys my beautiful soul sister annette where both swimming in a fresh stream up at barrten tops her nature name is Willow i was just standing in the water thinking what is my name when i looked over to the bank of the straem and heard fern Fern is your name i stopped a coupel of Ferns.
I smiled ferns are very protective as our found out recently.
I feel so happy when i;m around them.
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Its nice to get intouch with the magical side of myself again, i had a thought to drawn the fern King how intresting it will be to draw him, i know i will enjoy drwing him.
I don't know why i have a sadness in my heart also when i think of my twin i feel sadness.
Some tears whant to come, but i try to think about other things.
I am not his type never have been, He has never really wanted to know me.
I am just a shadow in his mind the shadow that follows him.
He will never know how much i love him , he would probley think i was nut case anyway how can love someone you have never turley meet.
But its too late now, this is something that will never happen, hes not to know me i have a feeling i know who his enegaed to a young woman that followed him and meet him one day she cheated on her boy friend with my twin.
Out of all the girls i hate this one others his been with never minded them but her there's somthing i don't like about her fake fake fake.
Conspireing not as sweet as you meet.
I feel she would sit back and watch others do the work, take take take.
But this is not my probleam.
And as my guides said stop thinking about it its not ment to be never will be.
Be happy with my own life, and stop being so jelouse of what anouther has.
So i just constrate on what makes me happy , music mediatation, nature.
At lest i have closher, and my intuistion was right.
Just the other things where wrong i never liked me was never attracted to me or even cared i don't even think he knew i exsissted, ah well mybe this is my lession for this life time.
The bezzes is strong outside tonight.
I don't know why i have a sadness in my heart also when i think of my twin i feel sadness.
Some tears whant to come, but i try to think about other things.
I am not his type never have been, He has never really wanted to know me.
I am just a shadow in his mind the shadow that follows him.
He will never know how much i love him , he would probley think i was nut case anyway how can love someone you have never turley meet.
But its too late now, this is something that will never happen, hes not to know me i have a feeling i know who his enegaed to a young woman that followed him and meet him one day she cheated on her boy friend with my twin.
Out of all the girls i hate this one others his been with never minded them but her there's somthing i don't like about her fake fake fake.
Conspireing not as sweet as you meet.
I feel she would sit back and watch others do the work, take take take.
But this is not my probleam.
And as my guides said stop thinking about it its not ment to be never will be.
Be happy with my own life, and stop being so jelouse of what anouther has.
So i just constrate on what makes me happy , music mediatation, nature.
At lest i have closher, and my intuistion was right.
Just the other things where wrong i never liked me was never attracted to me or even cared i don't even think he knew i exsissted, ah well mybe this is my lession for this life time.
The bezzes is strong outside tonight.
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I must move on and let go i whish him nothing but happyness and i know he has it he has love, I will forever be his shadow whsihing him nothing but love and happyness, sending him prays of protection. sometimes the people we love are not ment for use.
All i can do is work on what is best for me, self love healing and doing things that i love one day it will hopeful forget. again i will walk away.
I whish you nothing but the ever best with you family and friends.
i know your content i hope you had the children you longed for i hope oneday i have only whished you the best, i have no ill attenshions i would never do any ill to you never no matter how anger i got.
I would never whish you pain or suffering.
I am happy your found your happyness....
I went for my beautiful walk this afternoon the feeling of warmth from the sun on my skin and the bress i love nothing but feeling the air and bress around me i makes me feel free, i close my eyes and feel its tender careas on my skin and face sometimes i whish it would just lift me up and away.
I love watching the birds fly i whish that was me.
Theres a saying angels fly because they take themselves lightly.
In every hard moment i try to see the lighter side and laught at it to myself it seams to ease things and they don't feel so heavy.
All i can do is work on what is best for me, self love healing and doing things that i love one day it will hopeful forget. again i will walk away.
I whish you nothing but the ever best with you family and friends.
i know your content i hope you had the children you longed for i hope oneday i have only whished you the best, i have no ill attenshions i would never do any ill to you never no matter how anger i got.
I would never whish you pain or suffering.
I am happy your found your happyness....
I went for my beautiful walk this afternoon the feeling of warmth from the sun on my skin and the bress i love nothing but feeling the air and bress around me i makes me feel free, i close my eyes and feel its tender careas on my skin and face sometimes i whish it would just lift me up and away.
I love watching the birds fly i whish that was me.
Theres a saying angels fly because they take themselves lightly.
In every hard moment i try to see the lighter side and laught at it to myself it seams to ease things and they don't feel so heavy.
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