Finally got a inner answer

I have finally made a dision with my twin i realsed i can'y just turn off my feel's and i love them i have loved them for years, i want to be his friend but its up to him i won't force myself into his life i won't affrected his life.
It's his path but i can love him on a soul leavel, i wanted you to know, i love you so very much in my eyes you are my best friend when i thought you where gorn it really hurt.
I still energtically talked to you i would talk to you about my day when i feelt lost i talked to you when i was in pain i talked to you, i have one piture of you i talk too.
I do them same with my father i talk to my father and brother this way as well.
I hope you don't think i'm crazy.
But thought's pop in my minded i feelt you last night, i saw you crying your so sad when your sad i'm sad i feel your tears when you cry i cry when your happy i'm happy.
I want to shair so much with you i hope you do the same with me.
I was anger and thought somthing terrabal my guides pulled me into line, i feelt really bad for what i thought.
I know you love roses and animales and nature i want to shair all the beauty that is here with you.
When i'm excitted i just want to shair it with you, my guides said be your friend please let me be your friend i want so much to talk to you more then anything.
If you want to talk to me this is ok i was so happy when you started to texted me as really you no mask nothing hidden.
It made me so happy as this is all ive ever wanted.
I want you to trust me and be my best friend i do care i do love you i can't stop i can't just swich it off.
I know your a gental person i love this side of you i'm not ashamed to see you cry ive seen it ive seen your loneyness.
I can't walk away from you it's too hard it brakes me too, i feel like i'm dieing inside.
But with what my giudes tolled me to do to be your friend gave me the peace i was looking for.
Please forgive me for thinking of u like your past i apoligies for this it is wrong belittling and controling it is wrong.     

Every time i image i meet you i see myself sitting beside you on a green park bench talking with you holding you hand and kissing your hand gentely i want to hug you so much i look at the way some girls talk about you i don't like it because in my eyes its degradeing of who you are as a person but i say nothing it is what it is.
I respected you as aperon who has a heart and feelings i don't think alot of people see that i see a beautiful warm soul with a gental heart the way you love animales makes me see this also the way you nature makes me see this.
I'm so proude of you you have grown so far but it really dosnt matter about me its how you feel about you.
I'm going on my own self love jurney i want to put it on here i want to shair my affrimashions.
My work i'm doing with you if you want to try this its up to you.
the wound i see in myself is the same wound i see in you.
I want to help but this is up to you ..... i will not push this on you, as this is your path.
My beautifule dear soul friend i'm hear for you always always.
i saw you sitting at a big long wooden tabel seround by men and wiman some o;d some young some your age.
But there's no connection not even with the lady your engaged too, too thoughts popped in my head iver its because it's a work thing why this relashionship is so.
Or you just don't want to be alone.
I also don't want to put to much attenshion to you iver whise people from your past will follow you again. I don't want this for you you need peace..... your heart ,soul and body has had eneough of people useing you.
You deserve better, YOU deserve your own love, your own kindness your own compashion.
Its hard but the more you do it you feel stroneger.
I also asked for sines from the universe and i'm getting them.
Any ways my dear soul friend i whish you nothing but a beautiful day.
Many hugs to you ..... keep smiling praying for you.