Its rainig tonight they said that rain was coming, I feel alittle lowe in myself tonight, So many thought's going around and around in my head, I feel alittle sad now and again ill start crying now and then but i'm not depressed.
I asked god for guidence lastnight i asked for sines on what i should do.
I keep asking why has this person come back into my life?
The question is always why? do they want to hurt me? do they hate me? do they want revenge?
Do they think i want an apolige from them answer is No they never owed me anything i never owned them.
They have there own life and path to walk.
I only ever wanted to see them happy and i am happy there Marryed and have there own family.
I have to stop thinking about them and leave them alone.
I don't know why they added me ? they don't want to be my friend? they dont want to talk to me?
Or maybe there just intrested in my readings so many thoughts in my head.
So many triggers arising , all i know is i will never let let anyone hurt me again.
Im just focusing on me.
Somtimes i wounder are they in a open relashionshipand there just looking for a good time with people.
I was trying to understand why i was so drawn to them why i feelt i knew them, i'm just so confused.
Or was i just brout into there life to guide them help them heal.
Then i think why would they want revenege when i have done nothing but whish them the best.
I thought are they really my twinflame or am i just beliveing into a silly stupid huminesed thought that us despreat humans i looking and longing for.
When i look threw tik tok i see nothing but bad stories about realshionships it all games man only like ruff wiman that sleep around or wiman that treat man badly that men don't like nice girls or ladies.
The way people treat each other just confuse's me i just like being trait down the line i don't play around with peoples feelings and i exspceted the same from others.
I asked god for guidence lastnight i asked for sines on what i should do.
I keep asking why has this person come back into my life?
The question is always why? do they want to hurt me? do they hate me? do they want revenge?
Do they think i want an apolige from them answer is No they never owed me anything i never owned them.
They have there own life and path to walk.
I only ever wanted to see them happy and i am happy there Marryed and have there own family.
I have to stop thinking about them and leave them alone.
I don't know why they added me ? they don't want to be my friend? they dont want to talk to me?
Or maybe there just intrested in my readings so many thoughts in my head.
So many triggers arising , all i know is i will never let let anyone hurt me again.
Im just focusing on me.
Somtimes i wounder are they in a open relashionshipand there just looking for a good time with people.
I was trying to understand why i was so drawn to them why i feelt i knew them, i'm just so confused.
Or was i just brout into there life to guide them help them heal.
Then i think why would they want revenege when i have done nothing but whish them the best.
I thought are they really my twinflame or am i just beliveing into a silly stupid huminesed thought that us despreat humans i looking and longing for.
When i look threw tik tok i see nothing but bad stories about realshionships it all games man only like ruff wiman that sleep around or wiman that treat man badly that men don't like nice girls or ladies.
The way people treat each other just confuse's me i just like being trait down the line i don't play around with peoples feelings and i exspceted the same from others.
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I have also made a new spiritual friend from work she helped me with feeling overwhealmed her name id tiffaney she said she been picking up things and seeing spirit since she was 6, she picked up 2 men around me, she said one is from my past an is friten of rejecshion, she said i could take ages to hear from this person.
The second one is one i will meet soon, he might be alittle yunger then me not much she said he could be 6 foot 2 to 6 foot 4 with hair that is sholder langth sunkissed blonde that skin that tans easy, blue green eyes that are unnewsual, which is what ive been picking up she said this man will travel abit then come back to Australia he is forhen australian she said this man will have hardly any family no children and said we will be very good friends that makes me happy.
she said he will be open minded and spiritual, i feel this man own's his own tarot set and penjulam keeps standing out. Hes into healing could be into Reiki loves the asian country's.
Reminds me of Davin the guy i meet at the angel shop who was very spritual and from Canada.
I will never forget meeting him when he hugged me there was a big surge of energy that went between us two like a kundaleny rising it was werid i have never exsprinced it with anyone since only him my legs where shacking i feelt like i was going to fall down all i reamber is him saying he keep triping on energy. Very lovley soul it was his Aura i spotted first it was golden yellow and so big.
I reamber it still all i thought was wow look at the sise of that guys aura. LOL LOL LOL
I'm still doing my healing and saying my mantras i feel im doing well mybe that's why i feel emoshional looking at unheal wounds so in a way that's good.
It was werid i saw a bee and it landed on my car i thought huh maybe it thought it was a flower lol lol lol.
I love the rain but i won't be abeal to sit under my tree i won't be happy about that.
I love my tree its the best thing that has come into my life.
And i'm going to meet up with Joanne to get my reading site up and running i have a camer i have never tryed it iver maybe its time to test it.
The second one is one i will meet soon, he might be alittle yunger then me not much she said he could be 6 foot 2 to 6 foot 4 with hair that is sholder langth sunkissed blonde that skin that tans easy, blue green eyes that are unnewsual, which is what ive been picking up she said this man will travel abit then come back to Australia he is forhen australian she said this man will have hardly any family no children and said we will be very good friends that makes me happy.
she said he will be open minded and spiritual, i feel this man own's his own tarot set and penjulam keeps standing out. Hes into healing could be into Reiki loves the asian country's.
Reminds me of Davin the guy i meet at the angel shop who was very spritual and from Canada.
I will never forget meeting him when he hugged me there was a big surge of energy that went between us two like a kundaleny rising it was werid i have never exsprinced it with anyone since only him my legs where shacking i feelt like i was going to fall down all i reamber is him saying he keep triping on energy. Very lovley soul it was his Aura i spotted first it was golden yellow and so big.
I reamber it still all i thought was wow look at the sise of that guys aura. LOL LOL LOL
I'm still doing my healing and saying my mantras i feel im doing well mybe that's why i feel emoshional looking at unheal wounds so in a way that's good.
It was werid i saw a bee and it landed on my car i thought huh maybe it thought it was a flower lol lol lol.
I love the rain but i won't be abeal to sit under my tree i won't be happy about that.
I love my tree its the best thing that has come into my life.
And i'm going to meet up with Joanne to get my reading site up and running i have a camer i have never tryed it iver maybe its time to test it.
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