Been Watching abit of parnormal stuff on utube, Hade anouther stressful day.
I get to have a sleep in tomorrow which will be nice.
Yes coffee and tree time abit of grounding will be nice... i love sitting in the quite with no one around me just liseing to the birds and watching the butterflys and but lisening to the window blow threw the leaves watching them dance like there waving at you.
Smelling the sweat aroma of fresh crisp air.
Im planning on my day's off to go up to hanging rock ... and walk around nundel state forest.
I was haveing some deep thought's If we are a divine speck of god and we are all from source.
Then would this me that God or prime creator, Is who we are really look for love and full acreeptence from.
One of the key things i was given from my guides is that we need to love and exceept ourselves fully.
To create that connection with ourselves.
Ive been also watching alot of Near Death Exprences.
This has fasanated me for awhile now, working in age care has opened my eyes to alot of things exspchealy when people are ready to cross over.
And looking after a person some AINs are so fritened of a dead person i dose not worry me any more they just look asleep, I talk to them still because i can feel there spirit about.
I thank them for being part of my life.
When my father pasted away i could feel him still about untill i saw his body in the morge I just keep looking i thought thats not my dad he's not there any more .
I loved and admired My father so greatly he was an Angel on this earth he was so kind and pacient.
I wanted to be just like him. He was my rock the one person i could talk to.
I admired the way he did things buide things work on cars work on houses.
My baby brother was the same i didnt handel it well when i lost my baby brother.
I went into deniael i could not look at his photo's for at least 5 years.
I reamber when i was a little girl and when i got scarryed at night i would jump into bed beside him because i feelt safe near my little brother.
Every where i went he went and i was very protective of him.
My mum said when she brout him home i tryed to pull him out of the bassanet and said my baby.
When he got sick i fussed over him.
He was kind and gental soul with a big heart, he had shuch a laught he was shuch a cheeky steery he loved to play tricks on people.
My baby brother and i looked alot alike same eyes and nose.
He had a toy dog called poofoff lol lol lol he took that dog every where with him.
I know when i see willy wagtails he is about i saw two this morning..... And i started singing to myself I see two willy willy's ..... two willy willy's lol lol lol.
I sometimes wounder if my twin has had a near death exspreance..... just a gut feeling.
I could be wrong And buy the way my twins name dose not start with J ....
I think my twin is confussed, all i know if he is the same as he use to be i'm not going anywhere near him i will release it .... I don't want to go threw the pain anymore.
I would rather he go have fun and do what he want's to do.....It's his life his Path not mine.
I often ask why where we born so far away from each other.
What is his soul serching for why is he holding so much pain.
I don't like liers, or cheat's or people who play mind game's i can't stand Bullies or people who try to controle others Or people who force there belifes on others.
And i can sense when a person is lieing too, i Have found just from exsprence that if someone is acusing you of sleeping araound there the one doing it.
I need connection i will never let anyone close unless i get that feeling of connection.
I have only meet one guy i feelt that with and i also dreamped about him.
I reamber telling my twin on the phone i hade a dream about a handsome Blonde man whearing a coyboy hat that was white I was sitting on his lap.
At a party then my twin said to me over the phone you can not dream about anyone but me.
I thought what the hell are you talking about you can't controle your dreams.
Then i think it was a coupel of months after this we hade a big argument and he acoused me off seeing someone eals i thought what the hell are you talking about.
Anyway the year after i meet someone ealse at a work place.
A karmic soulmate .... He brout out the most romantic side of me.
But he also badly hurt me My heart was broken.
Then about 2002 was when i meet Phillip at a birthday party the blonde man with the white cowboy hat and i was sitting on his lap . i felt safe and it felt right his face reminded me of the actor out of deep blue. I loved his smile. And he hade the most starngest eyes simalar colour to mine but with saprkel stary spots and i loved his blonde hair and his kisses i just wanted to kiss him all the time.
Lol lol lol I loved his walk but he hade shuch a bad temper and a drinking probleam.
His temper scared me....
But he was not the resion i moved away to newcastle. it was anouther resion but i was the best think i ever did.
I learn to much and meet so many diffrent people and spiritual people this is where i meet monika and got my first every crystal healing and thats where my passion for crystals came from.
I just grew and learnt so much i went to wicca school at rose cottage. I meet and esprence so many fantastic things meeting diffrent healers and people who loved angels i was tort to do reading and aurtomatic writing read Ted andrews book, silver brown, penny price, my love for angels grew deeper. Medatition and noticed i could also do channeling.
I reamber this one time a friend was watching me as we where mediateing.
I could feel a male presence come over me i feel like a big stocky american indian man i frecked out opened my eyes because my hands feelt bigger i looked at my hands i thought no i'm still me.
But when i closed my eyes i could still feel them there. I asked them what there name was i got Old Grey wolf and could see the wolf skin on his head he was a shaman and healer.
I will never forget that exsprence.
Now i love the paranormal and ghosts and my friend caraline loves it too.
I was thinking i might use my pendulum and get the answers i wanted to ask my twin.
I do care about him i do love him but i am unshore why i dremped of hims why what is the purpess are we to work togeather for something bigger.
Somethimes twins are only to meet to heal inner wounds or to help rise the energy.
There has to be a purpess....
And still i am getting werid man on facebook trying to be my friend i was texting with one guy he had such a heavy energy almost anger ... i could feel the heat on my back prickeling.
And pushy i hate pushy people i like to get to know people slowly i don't let my gard down as eastly any more.
After a friend hurt me I grarde myself well now untill i sense the energy and get the feel of the person.
All the werid men on face book there is no connection i think there fake acounts one was a bloody show host OMG i laughted.
But who ever i was chatting with they feelt really anger......
Anywas going on
I get to have a sleep in tomorrow which will be nice.
Yes coffee and tree time abit of grounding will be nice... i love sitting in the quite with no one around me just liseing to the birds and watching the butterflys and but lisening to the window blow threw the leaves watching them dance like there waving at you.
Smelling the sweat aroma of fresh crisp air.
Im planning on my day's off to go up to hanging rock ... and walk around nundel state forest.
I was haveing some deep thought's If we are a divine speck of god and we are all from source.
Then would this me that God or prime creator, Is who we are really look for love and full acreeptence from.
One of the key things i was given from my guides is that we need to love and exceept ourselves fully.
To create that connection with ourselves.
Ive been also watching alot of Near Death Exprences.
This has fasanated me for awhile now, working in age care has opened my eyes to alot of things exspchealy when people are ready to cross over.
And looking after a person some AINs are so fritened of a dead person i dose not worry me any more they just look asleep, I talk to them still because i can feel there spirit about.
I thank them for being part of my life.
When my father pasted away i could feel him still about untill i saw his body in the morge I just keep looking i thought thats not my dad he's not there any more .
I loved and admired My father so greatly he was an Angel on this earth he was so kind and pacient.
I wanted to be just like him. He was my rock the one person i could talk to.
I admired the way he did things buide things work on cars work on houses.
My baby brother was the same i didnt handel it well when i lost my baby brother.
I went into deniael i could not look at his photo's for at least 5 years.
I reamber when i was a little girl and when i got scarryed at night i would jump into bed beside him because i feelt safe near my little brother.
Every where i went he went and i was very protective of him.
My mum said when she brout him home i tryed to pull him out of the bassanet and said my baby.
When he got sick i fussed over him.
He was kind and gental soul with a big heart, he had shuch a laught he was shuch a cheeky steery he loved to play tricks on people.
My baby brother and i looked alot alike same eyes and nose.
He had a toy dog called poofoff lol lol lol he took that dog every where with him.
I know when i see willy wagtails he is about i saw two this morning..... And i started singing to myself I see two willy willy's ..... two willy willy's lol lol lol.
I sometimes wounder if my twin has had a near death exspreance..... just a gut feeling.
I could be wrong And buy the way my twins name dose not start with J ....
I think my twin is confussed, all i know if he is the same as he use to be i'm not going anywhere near him i will release it .... I don't want to go threw the pain anymore.
I would rather he go have fun and do what he want's to do.....It's his life his Path not mine.
I often ask why where we born so far away from each other.
What is his soul serching for why is he holding so much pain.
I don't like liers, or cheat's or people who play mind game's i can't stand Bullies or people who try to controle others Or people who force there belifes on others.
And i can sense when a person is lieing too, i Have found just from exsprence that if someone is acusing you of sleeping araound there the one doing it.
I need connection i will never let anyone close unless i get that feeling of connection.
I have only meet one guy i feelt that with and i also dreamped about him.
I reamber telling my twin on the phone i hade a dream about a handsome Blonde man whearing a coyboy hat that was white I was sitting on his lap.
At a party then my twin said to me over the phone you can not dream about anyone but me.
I thought what the hell are you talking about you can't controle your dreams.
Then i think it was a coupel of months after this we hade a big argument and he acoused me off seeing someone eals i thought what the hell are you talking about.
Anyway the year after i meet someone ealse at a work place.
A karmic soulmate .... He brout out the most romantic side of me.
But he also badly hurt me My heart was broken.
Then about 2002 was when i meet Phillip at a birthday party the blonde man with the white cowboy hat and i was sitting on his lap . i felt safe and it felt right his face reminded me of the actor out of deep blue. I loved his smile. And he hade the most starngest eyes simalar colour to mine but with saprkel stary spots and i loved his blonde hair and his kisses i just wanted to kiss him all the time.
Lol lol lol I loved his walk but he hade shuch a bad temper and a drinking probleam.
His temper scared me....
But he was not the resion i moved away to newcastle. it was anouther resion but i was the best think i ever did.
I learn to much and meet so many diffrent people and spiritual people this is where i meet monika and got my first every crystal healing and thats where my passion for crystals came from.
I just grew and learnt so much i went to wicca school at rose cottage. I meet and esprence so many fantastic things meeting diffrent healers and people who loved angels i was tort to do reading and aurtomatic writing read Ted andrews book, silver brown, penny price, my love for angels grew deeper. Medatition and noticed i could also do channeling.
I reamber this one time a friend was watching me as we where mediateing.
I could feel a male presence come over me i feel like a big stocky american indian man i frecked out opened my eyes because my hands feelt bigger i looked at my hands i thought no i'm still me.
But when i closed my eyes i could still feel them there. I asked them what there name was i got Old Grey wolf and could see the wolf skin on his head he was a shaman and healer.
I will never forget that exsprence.
Now i love the paranormal and ghosts and my friend caraline loves it too.
I was thinking i might use my pendulum and get the answers i wanted to ask my twin.
I do care about him i do love him but i am unshore why i dremped of hims why what is the purpess are we to work togeather for something bigger.
Somethimes twins are only to meet to heal inner wounds or to help rise the energy.
There has to be a purpess....
And still i am getting werid man on facebook trying to be my friend i was texting with one guy he had such a heavy energy almost anger ... i could feel the heat on my back prickeling.
And pushy i hate pushy people i like to get to know people slowly i don't let my gard down as eastly any more.
After a friend hurt me I grarde myself well now untill i sense the energy and get the feel of the person.
All the werid men on face book there is no connection i think there fake acounts one was a bloody show host OMG i laughted.
But who ever i was chatting with they feelt really anger......
Anywas going on