Yep one of thoses days

I woke up today not feeling very very good this morning lucky it was my day off  woke up with a very upset stomic and my back and hips acking so i was not shore if i had a stomic virus was in alot a of pain feelt very off i'm allowing myself to rest i think my back maybe alittle out so painful i wanted to cry.
I do care about my twin very very much i don't think ill ever stop loving him but i also do not want to interfere in his life, he look's so happy.
This makes me feel happy.... I think hes marryed and i do not whish to interfere in his life.
Ive noticed he has alot of ladies following him.
This has kind of made me pull back as well.
But i have decided that i don't want to interfere and just walk my path maybe one day he might want to be my friend.
If not i have to exceept that too, i can pray for him i can send him good energy which makes me happy.
I like whish alot of love for every one, But i just at the moment i need to give myself some of my own love when i feel unwell i know i need to give myself my own love.
I really want to look after myself, I'm quite tired but i think this is pain.
I have also found out someone in my family is alittle unhappy with me and how my life is going.
I had a funny feeling about this, i can feel bad energy from people over the net.
My guides said send them loveand light they will deal with it.
I feel with My friend Melly and caraline i can be myself ive cryed many times in front of melly and caraline.
If it wasnt for melly i would have been a mess she's my angel i love her dearly, we have alot of things in comon.
Same as Cass shes shuch a beautiful soft sole im very blessed.
Why is it when i connceted with my twin i get dizzy and light headed, i feel it.      

I hope hes ok i whish i could hug him i really need a hug from him im feeling alittle whimpy but that's because i feel alittle off, Ill get there I'm getting out of my way and just allowing things to be as it should.
I try to conneceted i want to chat with this man but i won't push myself into his life exspecahel if he is marryed as i have noticed a ring on his finger.
And i will not interfer in that, i do whish him so much happyness.
But i'm going to rest my back is really hurting
Ive been looking alot of crystals again. I picked up an extra shift on saterday so i let my tummy rest.
I hate it if i do make him anger i don't mean to and i apoligies i just over think.
I think maybe i'm to pushy i was so happy to see him, i'm trying but i don't want to try to hard so i don't get him anger.
I hate doing that i don't like making people anger.
​I like to respected people and not push bounders.